Lyrics table talk. - Joshua

Sitting round a table talking for hours
Sharing life stories, adding steps to this tower
My auntie been thru the ringer and still fighting tears
It's hard to be strong after fighting so many years
I know it's complicated, life and how we make it
We come from the dust just to end up cremated
Sipping my coffee, that smell takes me
Back to the days when life wasn't speed racing
It's crazy, I used to depend on
The people who always seemed so strong
But the notes have changed in their song
And now I'm helping carry the tune cause they can't really do it alone
My ma always told me to be careful as ya grow
Cause you start to learn some things that you'd never thought you'd know
It's hard out there on your own in this world so cold
From that Windy City tho, so I always got me a coat
Look, listening to music to really get my soul
I remember getting home and tuning up on the low
My way to relate, my space to escape
Scared to dive in and now I'm going at it face to face
It's hard to see those you care about struggle and limp
But life is a fight, man it is what it is

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Three AM man I can't get to sleep
Work on my mind, looking for my keys
Go back to bed Josh, still got a few hours
Fall back asleep, dreaming of bigger towers
I have a purpose to live out, a fam a feed, I'm stressed
Focused on what's ahead instead of what's in front of me I'm blessed
Got a wife, got a crib, and a kid on the way
A dog, a good job, and I'm 25 years from the day
I was born into this world, single mama on the jobs
Praying to God to help to keep both of us alive
Mama been thru it, I could never understand it
To others in those shoes, I pray strength in your direction
Man it's crazy, life is weird tho
I swear the ones who make it are only weirdos
Ain't no lessons to teach, I'm just venting
Been a while since I've used this method

But

My souls feeling heavy, I've been carrying a lot
Of weight on my mind, hard to give all I got
The beat continues, the story fades
Into another version, into another page
My souls feeling heavy, I've been carrying a lot
Of weight on my mind, hard to give all I got
The beat continues, the story fades
Finally letting go, finally feeling safe

Sitting round the table and everybody's gone now
Just me and my thoughts, how's it gonna go down
Temptation on my mind, got my phone out
Will I or will I not? Idk, my heart slows down
Sitting in the darkness, I'm finally seeing clear
All the pain and loneliness just added to the fear
Of never being enough for the people in my life
So I took to different ways to make me feel alright
Now I'm seeing straight, and the path is paved
I have a bone to pick with whoever tried to make
Me think I can't do this, I couldn't be me
I swear the God in me got me feeling so free
I ain't scared to go all in, boy I'm noosing up
No suit and tie tho but I'm bossing up
I ain't worried about your love or your fake acceptance
You tell me to be real and I accept your challenge
With God

My souls feeling heavy, I've been carrying a lot
Of weight on my mind, hard to give all I got
The beat continues, the story fades
Into another version, into another page
My souls feeling heavy, I've been carrying a lot
Of weight on my mind, hard to give all I got
The beat continues, the story fades
Finally letting go, finally feeling safe

My souls feeling heavy, I've been carrying a lot
Of weight on my mind, hard to give all I got
The beat continues, the story fades
Into another version, into another page
My souls feeling heavy, I've been carrying a lot
Of weight on my mind, hard to give all I got
The beat continues, the story fades
Finally letting go, finally feeling safe