Lyrics Alone Time - Jourdan Brothern

I'm rea- I'm really just like not rapping no more
I don't even feel like rapping on this
I don't even know what I'm saying at this point

I grew up with no love man, my cousin life was short
Remember I used to be scared to show a progress report
My daddy took my momma to court over child support
Why is you worried about that when yo child need support?
I used to be locked inside the house man, I can't do no sports
I tried to get along with my sister, making pillow forts
I get so tired when they ask "Is your parents divorced?"
I swore to god I wished my momma got me abort
Swear to god I got so tired of living, took that medicine
Blood pressure rising to the ceiling, need adrenaline
If my wifey leave me, promise I won't ever love again
I just see her with another dude and I get jealous and
Start to think that maybe if I'm gone then she doing way better
You can call that ole girl WiFi
She hit my soft spot like a marshmallow
Got the juice up in this world
Sometimes it's so hard to say bye bye
I used to be that one child that get all on your nerves
Now everyone calling me a shy guy
Swear to god I did not mean to break your heart baby
Why did you put your trust up in a high guy?
Too much water on my neck
I just might slip up
Niggas on yo dick as they hit that click, uh
Why'd my brudda die for something that wasn't his fault?
I just be losing train of thought sometimes

Oh oh
They been trying to take me man
Oh oh
They been trying to fake me man
Oh oh
They been trying to snake me out
They been trying to take me out
I might not just make it out
Oh oh
They been trying to take me man
Oh oh
They been trying to fake me man
Oh oh
They been trying to snake me out
They copy and paste it all
Brother died without no clout

The streets ain't teach you nothing ain't it?
I was sitting in my room planning how to get famous like Amos
I'm a man with the plan, make a song with Jamie
I'ma still keep on going if everybody hate it
Oh, ah
Will I get all that love if I'm a dead man?
I just need somebody here for me, a "Where yo head?" man
They always throw me in the dirt, gotta wear a helmet

Oh oh
They been trying to take me man
Oh oh
They been trying to fake me man
Oh oh
They been trying to snake me out
They been trying to take me out
I might not just make it out
Oh oh
They been trying to take me man
Oh oh
They been trying to fake me man
Oh oh
They been trying to snake me out
They copy and paste it all
Brother died without no clout