Lyrics Seeking - Julian Lamadrid

And now ima gonna do to the beat what you did to my heart
Imma steal it then kill it and use it for art
Put it on pedestals, make it feel special, then leave it
Yeah that's where I think imma start
Maybe I'm harsh
Maybe it just wasn't written in stars
Maybe I needed the solitude, the sadness, the madness,
The days and the nights reading books in the back of the bar
The greatest classes is being so lonely
That all you can dream of is being a star
Whatever the fuck that may mean
Honestly it's all obscene
It feels like two thousand eighteen
Is the year that everyone thinks they're the top of the heap
Everyone listen to me
"I'm really fucking lonely"
Well sit down and join the club
Get a drink, play some music and lay off some steam

Well ive been waiting for so long
Too many nights spent alone
Seeking the sound of my soul yeah
And you know
I've been waiting for so long
Too many nights spent alone
Seeking the sound of my soul yeah
And you know
I've been waiting for so long

Rolling the dice
I'm playing the game
I'm losing my mind, fucking going insane
There's no one to blame
I'm just constantly growing impatient
Sick of a life being nameless
Wishing that I could be famous
Dreaming a day that I'll change shit
Cause I know that I got talent that all these kids just be faking
You took a hit and you think you're amazing
You don't even write all the music you're playing
So don't be surprised when the fame begins fading
Cause if there's one thing that I know
Ain't like you dilettantes digging for gold
I'm actually bleeding and losing control
Seeking the music that's deep in my soul

Well I've been waiting for so long
Too many nights spent alone
Seeking the sound of my soul yeah
And you know
I've been waiting for so long
Too many nights spent alone
Seeking the sound of my soul
And you know
I've been waiting for so long

(I've been waiting for so long)
(Too many nights spent alone)
(Seeking the sound of my soul)
(And you know)
(I've been waiting for so long)