Lyrics Apologies - K.Czupkowski

I know that when I say this I might regret it
But it's time to say your no longer in my life
And it might be for the best
I guess my family never liked me
Do I keep fighting for it
Do I just live with it
If I live with it might fuck me up
Keep questioning why I was born
Was I born to be abused
Or was I slapped up, hurt and used
Don't want to be living in toxic fused drama
Bitch is life and it's full of karma
Didn't help me in the slightest
I was one of the stars but now I am not the brightest
Going to deep but no apologies
Your a failure what does that make me
I was real from the get-go but that shit stings
Gonna run away from home without the keys
Five shots take me to the knee's
In the void
The darkness grows wider
Surging through my skin
Away with the wind
Wherever it takes me
Why did I keep on looking for you

The light is near
But I am living on a tight rope
Thin ice, clear but I'd rather freeze
Everyday of the week
Screw you I need to escape no need to be saved

The light is near
But I am living on a tight rope

Wanna put my feelings in the grave
Not myself, I wanna survive
I've been through malicious hell
Constant pressure if I get that apology I'll bounce back
I will smash through every cruel world that I been subjected to
Whats going on the world doesn't revolve around you
(Around you)
Everyone hurts so don't take it out on others
If you take it out on me then karma will be waiting for your receipt
You made me so introverted
Not exploring new pastures
Confining in myself
Wondering where I went wrong
You better listen to what I have to say
Cus
I put my heart and soul into this song
One word is all I want
Sorry
Every time I walk outside I am hanging on because of dedication
Into the career that I chose
Knocking down all of my enemies
Fixing all the hearts that you broke and left behind
Putting them first instead of myself

The light is near
But I am living on a tight rope
Thin ice, clear but I'd rather freeze
Everyday of the week
Screw you I need to escape no need to be saved

Well, I love seeing people happy
I prefer them being happier than me
I've always been low and wondering I want to be dead
But I won't
Cus my friends and family will be sad and I don't like them being sad
I've always made them sad in the past for the things I've done
And that put's and impact on me because I pay the price
I just wish I didn't let them down of the choices I've made
And I just keep doing it over and over again
Haha
Fuck
They probably had enough of me
I just wish I was me

The light is near
But I am living on a tight rope
Thin ice, clear but I'd rather freeze
Everyday of the week
Screw you I need to escape no need to be saved
The light is near
But I am living on a tight rope
Thin ice, clear but I'd rather freeze
Everyday of the week
Screw you I need to escape no need to be saved