Lyrics Grown Decisions - K-Trap

Conversating with money I feel like there's more to do
On the positive side
But on the negative side there's more to lose
Can't believe how far I've come
But I know how close it was
I cut ties with people we never spoke enough
Was a name on a card till they let me out now I'm named a star
But it's bittersweet you'll think it's easy but I find it hard
Cos it's so different now out in the suburbs
And if I tell the truth I ain't missing South
Then again I'm lying it's where the music's inspired
But there's too much emotions too much crying too much people dying
Where I'm at now is just quiet but its way too quiet
I ain't used to the silence I'm used to the sirens
I'm used to the murder investigations right outside my door
Now I look outside the and G63's beside the Porsche
Do what I like and then they go dislike me more
But you can't knock it if you ain't tried before
Central Hill with the grey estates I kinda miss the views
Now I hit the booth I was tryna make one of them hit the news
Outside where you gotta hide
When you hear them tyres and niggas shoot
Now only time I hide is from Deliveroo
Leave that at the door we was pulling up leaving man on the floor
On the back roads stroll in the woods
I'm used to the back roads
Latest iPhone I'm used to the Trap phone
Brick of magic I use to stretch the coke
Tryna build my credit now I gotta go on the electoral roll
I was so dirty but I feel cleaner now
Too lit to tidy so I got a cleaner now
Used to sign for bail now I'm suited signing agreements now
I know the haters can see me now but is cool tho
2& a q and a shotgun I was in school clothes
That was the norm really wanted it all
I see man fall on the way and I'm feeling bad and it's not my fault
He was unruly I stayed grounded I used listen when they would talk
I used to listen kitchen was whipping that's when I went missing
I heard the hissing and bitching couldn't listen I kept my distance
Best position I'm grateful and gifted I wouldn't switch it
Feeling different still pick me the Smith And I wouldn't risk it
Starting to feel like a lonely mission
Long way home and I'm slowly drifting
They say I've changed but that's for the best
I know that you know me different
But I'm getting older now and it's grown decisions