Lyrics Nomad's Tale, Pt. 3 (Survivor's Guilt) - K the Chosen

This one ain't for you man this is mine
You just happen to be on my mind
Every time I take the time to write
But for the first time in a long time I can say I'm fine
Cos it's sunny outside
I will be alright
It's sunny outside

I miss you - more than I'm willing to admit
I try to - but I will never forget
You were my summer,you were my winter
You were my always down for whatever
But seasons they changed
And the wind blew away
All the feelings we had
The attention we paid
To the wrong signs
On the wrong side
Of the bed
I could see exactly what was going to happen
This ain't Clark Kent and lead
I knew better, shoulda done better
Shoulda said goodnight instead
My conscious was saying no
I could hear its voice in my head
I said screw that, then I screwed you
Then I lost my best friend
Was it worth it? Can't reverse it
Would I do it again?
If I'm a writer and I wrote this
Would I like how this ends?
I know it hurt and to make it worse
Whole time I had a girlfriend

This one ain't for you man this is mine
You just happen to be on my mind
Every time I take the time to write
But for the first time in a long time I can say I'm fine
Cos it's sunny outside
I will be alright
It's sunny outside

I miss you - more than I'm willing to admit
I try not to - but I tend to regret
That I moved away and you had to stay
And I had to watch from miles away
The things that they do the things that they say
They're hurting your heart and confusing your brain
As you watch em fight and you heard the lies
In the dead of night, you scream silent cries
I wasn't there to dry your eyes
I wasn't there to say good bye
When he chose to dip and the house was split
Even further than it was before
It was two kids here and two kids there then suddenly one more
I wasn't sleeping, my heart was aching from my own cup I wanted to pour
The love and hope I have for you but I always felt that you needed more
Big brother was gone so who's watching you?
When you need to vent who are you talking to?
It hurts my chest, I text less and less cos that sh*t gets too painful
I'm out here tryna do better, get a job and get a house too
So all y'all can come through and live together under one roof

This one ain't for you man this is mine
You just happen to be on my mind
Every time I take the time to write
But for the first time in a long time I can say I'm fine
Cos it's sunny outside
I will be alright
It's sunny outside