Lyrics meditate - Kalvin Moon

I don't feel no better on a rainy day
Put the trigger to my head I need to meditate
Should I empty out this drum should I let it spray?
Yea they'll throw me all my flowers when I'm in the grave

I just passed I think these drugs abusive
And I stay away from people I be on reclusive
Say they wanna have my back then put something through it
I don't trust none of these lames I ain't fucking stupid

Cuz I just need to meditate
These drugs help me to stay awake
All I do is make mistakes
I just need a fucking break

Somebody help me
I don't feel healthy
I need drink till I feel a buzz
Fill up my stomach it's straight to the gut
You tell me you love me it's never enough yea
You tell me you love me it's never enough yea

I'ma get drunk till I pass out
Woke back up just to crash out
I used to feel now all I feel is numb
Ctrl Alt then we deleting them

I don't want pity I wanted your help
I'm feeling feelings I never have felt
My hearts cold but you know that it melts
I'm two horned like I'm straight out of hell
I hope I get well What do I sell?
You know where I dwell

Cuz I just need to meditate
These drugs help me to stay awake
All I do is make mistakes
I just need a fucking break