Lyrics Telephone Operator - Khaii

I posses a wound that'll never heal but I learned to cope
The most devastating thing happened to me
And I turned the anger and the rage into inspiration to better myself as I grow
It taught me to heal from other situations and it brought me hope
Like Drake said "sometimes forgiveness is a lonely road" so
I'm still learning to forgive but I can't forget
I've forgiven some, still working on the rest
I've been writing ever since then now my pen game's something to respect

Operator, she gotta know that she gon needa grab herself
Cause she gon try to get rid of me a couple times tryna stab herself
I'm tryna reach her, just to tell her that she just needa love herself
Cause I know that it's hard now but it gets better
She just has trust God and trust herself
Yeah
I know I owe her an apology
Should've loved her more but I couldn't
She lost herself, I hated her for it, regrettably
She lost herself unwillingly though
Her brother was the problem he never afforded her
It's sad because he treated her so partially
Never had a say, they borrowed her like on a chartered fee
Three up against one is so unfair, they disregarded her
It's so unfortunate, I mean, she gotta be
Thinking this the real reason for my anxiety
Luckily I'm confident, otherwise, I'd be doubting me
All because he bullied her so she became so fearful
She was worried, she was done in its entirety
Lost my grandparents and that just added to the variety of
Reasons why I'm angsty all the time it's undeniably the
Most traumatic shit and then he had the audacity to
Quiet her by telling her to stop crying about it, like who does that shit?
So when I say I came up from the dirt
I mean I done blossomed throughout the crop dying, not lying
Been the truth, just needed to stop trying to convince everybody else when I know myself
I never cared to share the storyline, well now it's story time
My growing pains are teaching me transparency, thinking my story might
Fall on the ears of those thinking, "fuck, is this story mine?"
I thought I didn't have abandonment issues, but now I think I do
I always knew I was messed up, I really think I knew
I mean I thought I knew
But now I pay more attention to little bad habits and shit I casually do
As I get older, I realize all that's really wrong with me
All cause of the shit I went through growing up that's haunting me
Yeah I got through everything but why is it still costing me?
Dauntingly just taunted me, I made it out exhaustingly
But now I got these issues, scars and wounds
These thoughts and all these moods
From bicycle bruise to getting locked and beaten in a room with a
Plastic pipe that felt like galvanized pipes cause the
Way she bled, you'd think they're stabs from a knife
Anyway, she moved around a lot
Her mom had her young, was still in college
She sent her to her dad's house, where she wasn't acknowledged
And the stepmom did not want her around
She stayed with an aunt and hated it but ain't say it aloud
A whole bunch of back and forth
Why would you put a kid through that like it was all her fault?
That shit was cruel cause obviously you forgave him if you stayed with him
You wanna take it out on somebody, should've given the blame to him
Instead, you took it out on her and she grew up with many demons that she made within
Way too much trauma just remained within
Too scared to tell her mom, so she kept it in