Lyrics monster - LOAT!

I don't wanna be a monster
Heartbroke posture
Dead on the concrete
No first responders
I'll keep you safe in the underwxrld
Wander into my garden
My graves over yonder
Suck my blood idk if i want her
Id die for a feeling don't call me a martyr
She don't know the real me cus i don't wanna shock her
Use me, abuse me, confuse me, shoot me, you turned me to a monster

Now i'm on the road
They think i sold my soul
I did it all alone
I never leave my home
Without a pole of chrome
I gotta beat 50 before they know my motive
Im soulless
I can't hold it
Offered you my heart then you reached out and broke it
Too many heart breaks now i feel so exhausted
Shawty look away cus you turned me to a
You turned me to a monster

And i'll never be the same
Just give me the blame
Got no time to waste
Ion wanna play these games
I'm about this close
Gonna splatter all my brains
When you see me in the grave
Know i'll never be the same

And i'll never be the same
Never be the same as it was
I get high just to hide all the pain that it caused
Late nights on my line
You was begging for love
And i was tryna feel something
But i'm so fucking numb
One day i'll be perfect and i'll right all my wrongs
We could find a better place where no one hurts you i'm gone
We could find a better place somewhere that i belong
And when i die roll me up and smoke the ashes im gone

I don't wanna be a monster
Heartbroke posture
Dead on the concrete
No first responders
I'll keep you safe in the underwxrld
Wander into my garden
My graves over yonder
Suck my blood idk if i want her
Id die for a feeling don't call me a martyr
She don't know the real me cus i don't wanna shock her
Use me, abuse me, confuse me, shoot me, you turned me to a monster