Lyrics Flashback - Leo Xia feat. Alex Luu

Before I leave
I want to leave a part of myself...
The keys to my first car
My flip phone, its pixelated proof of my adolescence
The first and last poem I'd ever write
To show how far I'd come
And how much I had left to give

But I fear my children won't have the language to receive
If they're anything
Like me

When she had passed
I had lost all the gifts she gave in life
The rainbow bracelets I cut from my wrists
The Buddha I tossed down a tub drain when classmates mocked the ways she survived

Now, my clearest memories are all the times I wished I tried
The broken Chinese I was too embarrassed to speak
The nervous smile and headnod I left in its absence
How I'm still forging a flashback to feel more alive than
Aching