Lyrics Talk to Me - Loc Saint

I wrote this song because every single of my best friends
Throughout my life has completed suicide
Although Bigg-E was deemed as a suicide
We don't believe it actually went down like that
Every verse is a true story, check it out

See I just woke up and I got that call
And da calls coming in this time a night
They be da type I don't want at all
So I braced myself for da really bad fall
I was told that my best friend committed suicide
And hung from a noose on the wall
Now I'm all fucked up and I cant believe
That he's gone he was here just a couple months back
As I wipe my tears witta sleeve
And da break in my heart grows deeper than I thought it ever could
Full a constant grief I'm In my head going round and round
Thinking I coulda shoulda woulda wit no damn relief
Now I'm flashing back
To when we hung out last
I could see a little something off witchya
With the anger that you had was a clear contrast
A the man that I knew with the childhood issues
You could not look past
Told me that you had another personality living inside a you
And I was saying wait whats that
Stop
Hold up a second and don't talk so fast
Tell me about it I wanna know exact
But he shut me up again hushed me up
And told me this is a wound that you cannot patch
I said really you should get it off your chest
But he really got mad went inside and crashed
And that was the memory that I'm left with last

How Am I supposed
(Triple broken heart inside a me)
To carry this load
(Rippin artery's up outta me)
You suffered in the silence
(Emotions that you hide from me)
Cus I didn't know
(You can always talk to me)
No closure to be found
(Stuff it down alone you deal with it)
Instead of talking it out
(Tension higher than the ceiling get)
I told you, you could talk to me
(Wasn't feeling it)
You shutting me down
(You can always talk to me)

Remember way far back
When we were just young kids
Now I'm talking bout my first best friend
Where da 1st verse told how the last one ends
I wrote about em in the pattern they died
Suicide was the cause this is how it begins
Jumping on my bike on the southside
23rd block Cowgill right around the bend
And we played Nintendo
Like all damn day
When your just a little kid you don't worry bout the time
The hours pass away
Chase girls on the blacktop together
Wit a boombox up on my shoulder in play
Bangin Warren G, Hammer time & Tupac rockin from the cassette tape
We were so damn poor
But we didn't know that
All we knew was building forts rock fights riding bikes
Movie nights it was tight like that
Til ya mom called up witta news
That you guys had to pack and move away
I didn't see ya for a very long time
As a life carries on in a ghoulish way
Heard ya got enlisted and ya became a marine ten hut
Went off to fight came home to find
The girl you loved had become a slut
And it broke your heart
While the anger mounds
You gotta shotty and you put it to her body
Pull the trigger 1 dead then the gun turned round

How Am I supposed
(Triple broken heart inside a me)
To carry this load
(Rippin artery's up outta me)
You suffered in the silence
(Emotions that you hide from me)
Cus I didn't know
(You can always talk to me)
No closure to be found
(Stuff it down alone you deal with it)
Instead of talking it out
(Tension higher than the ceiling get)
I told you, you could talk to me
(Wasn't feeling it)
You shutting me down
(You can always talk to me)

Now we arrive at the last
But overall not least
My best friend bigg e who I started h2d with and produced the beats
Had a real big heart witta hole inside
From his kids that he could not see
And he loved hanging wit me in the studio
Dropping another track witta major heat
Although life was sour
We dreamed it sweet
Making everybody laugh swear to god
One of the funniest people you will ever meet
Partys and the rap battles had
In a rv parked in the driveway side of the street
Put to song carried on in the rythme
We would give em but we livin downtrod in defeat
Then his health declined
And it broke his mind
Telling momma had a feeling he was gonna die soon
And it was I who would in turn find
Him dead and she thought it kinda weird
But she shrugged it off in her reply
Checked into the hospital
From a pain in the side that would not subside
Then I got that call
From his mom and I listened
Told me she been calling him daily
But aint nobody pick up and its 3 days now missing
So I went to his house
And the sliders wide
Jumped the fence and found him overdosed to death
Upon on the couch where he died

How Am I supposed
(Triple broken heart inside a me)
To carry this load
(Rippin artery's up outta me)
You suffered in the silence
(Emotions that you hide from me)
Cus I didn't know
(You can always talk to me)
No closure to be found
(Stuff it down alone you deal with it)
Instead of talking it out
(Tension higher than the ceiling get)
I told you, you could talk to me
(Wasn't feeling it)
You shutting me down
(You can always talk to me)