Lyrics My Life - Lud Foe

I grew up a screw up, why?,
Cuz pops wasn't around,
He ain't get a chance to see me graduate in that gown,
Graduated out of eighth grade went back to the streets,
Used to cry so much made it for me easy to sleep,
Mama try but when I'm in the streets it's making my week,
Hold on give me a second this shit finna get deep,
Going to school mad now I'm locked up every week,
Mama tell me every day there ain't no love in the streets,
Feel like the world was after me so I'm packing my heat,
Crime scenes burglaries young and just trying to eat,
When they jumped off the porch I was crossing the street,
I used to ask myself why it happened to me,
Daddy was a heroin addict students laughing at me,
Ditching school smoking weed sitting under the tree,
All the girls used to laugh when a nigga walked pass untill i started selling dope started working with cash,
I always had dreams of being a man living life with a plan insted im crying with this gun in my hand,
Why life gotta be so hard but death is easy,
Run from it you either you take it or leave it,
What's with all these babies having these kids and nobody cares but one from thats just the way that it is,
Were killing our community but they aint takin it serious,
Police stedy killing kids we can't even live,
Walk in my shoes and take a look what ive been through,
Fussing and fighting every month the rent due,
Is that the struggle or not?
I gave it all that i got,
Imma get to the top whether you like it or not,
Remember cooking up that coke in the pot couldn't get a job im a felony so i had no choice to sell rocks and if you want some better in life than you gotta stand for it,
Moved out my mamas house and told her she her own landlord,
I grew up in Chicago where babies need food, teachers and teaching so all the kids picking up tools,
Want me tell you how I know? Cuz i was one of them dudes, just cuz i aint finish school that don't make me a fool,
A lot of people never really seen the struggle before,
They don't know how to ball, bounce and know how it roll,
But what you wanna live platinum or gold? It's just a wife that I chose me and my niggas used to where the same clothes,
But now we hit the malls together buying all of the stores, coming up man my heart had souls,
I just open my polls he'll beat it and i'll start to record,
I'm living in the fast lane like im on fast forward