Lyrics wtw? - M2!

Like baby what's really the word cause this shit kinda hard I ain't tryna get hurt
And I suffer of issues I don't put me first and I can't lose my life so I'm staying alert
Of the people I'm around
Pull me up and hold me down
Need a break I'm away and outta town
In my thoughts and I'm trying not to drown now I'm tweaking

Guard up I ain't tryna look stupid last time I was hurt what the fuck was I doing
I've been trying so hard not to lose it I can't understand what we had was confusing
Only way I can cope is with music I gave you my heart and you tried to abuse it
All actions speak louder than words so don't tell me you love me if you cannot prove it

Feel like going ghost I ain't really fucking with niggas might not be okay
At the end of the day I feel like I won't be alive so I sit here and I pray
So much shit I've been going through rain in my head and now all of this looking gray
And I'm tired of talking don't got no more words not much that I could really say

Now let me explain we gon start off with half of my brain
Derealization I'm going insane start to tweak and I don't feel the same
That's a reason I stay in my lane
Only part that I really could tame
Other part that's where I keep the pain
It stay bottled up I don't know what I gain tryna stop it

Cause the day I explode ain't too good and I'm tryna relax so I spark up a wood
Niggas know I put on for my hood and them same niggas talk on the business I stood
Keep it pushing don't know if I should but if it makes you happy you know that I would
Feeling misunderstood yeah niggas don't get all my lyrics
I wish that you could

Like baby what's really the word cause this shit kinda hard I ain't tryna get hurt
And I suffer of issues I don't put me first and I can't lose my life so I'm staying alert
Of the people I'm around
Pull me up and hold me down
Need a break I'm away and outta town
In my thoughts and I'm trying not to drown now I'm tweaking

Like you couldn't love me for me and I'm not the type to be begging you please
To be wise some shit you can't teach
And coulda been us little date on the beach
Have a convo just let it get deep
Only time I express is when I'm on a beat
Wanna know me then just take a seat
All you gotta do is just listen and peep
Damn