Lyrics Letter to Blaklez - M2Kane

The seams have held it in
Please just let me live
I feel like caving in
My dreams of getting in
Are turning into nothing
It′s strangling the budget
Gotta rake it in before my momma kick the bucket

What you know about...

Battling the wind
Made a nigga travel way up to get intimate
With intuition I been raised up with a little bit of vision but my nigger wait up hold up right there
I sit in front of yet another test
I don't have the energy to deal with more reject
I have set all the steps that are that are ready to be checked
Bench press all the stress & then I′m tending to the quest
My nigga! try 2 hold it down lil nigga, all 4 tha grind lil nigga
Ain't no other way around it
You from a small town lil nigga
It's that only way you′ll climb lil nigga
Pick yourself up off that ground &
Stick it out show that you′re legit
& No matter what you do homie don't you dare quit
But that road is so stiff homie I don′t know shit, think its best that I split coz

I don't wanna be another stat, in gold city
Made it up but never made it back, it′s so shitty
I can't believe that I tried to play it down
You said believe & you′ll see that your dreams they going find a way to shine
I let you down
I can't get it out my brain
I tried to run that was dumb coz my nigga der ain't no escape
He told me keep ya head little nigga head up that way
But it was done I was numb yea my vision sealed off my fate
Nigga tried to swim upstream in the city waves

& Drowned, I drowned
Drowned, I drowned
Drowned, I drowned
Drowned

Let′s take it back to the beach
Never thought that I would be this happy to retreat
& My nigga Lwaistar let me crash at his crib
With my nigga Bling homies had me when I had nix
Nullified, I was tryna level out my feet
Humble pie, with the bitter taste o′ defeat
Imma guy, who has never broke down to his fears
But I still hear the words o' Showtime in my ear saying
You shoulda held it down little nigga
Didn′t even try lil nigga, thought there was a way around it
But now you small time lil nigga, ain't nowhere to hide lil nigga
Shoulda stood up from the ground dawg ey
Now my life becoming groundhog day & I feel like such a coward
I swear your voice is getting louder

Coz I don′t wanna be another stat, in gold city
Made it up but never made it back, it's so shitty
I can′t believe that I tried to play it down
You said believe & you'll see that your dreams they goin' find a way to shine
I let you down
I can′t get it out my brain
I tried to run that was dumb coz my nigga der ain′t no escape
He told me keep ya head little nigga head up that way
But it was done I was numb yea my vision sealed off my fate
Nigga tried to swim upstream in the city waves

& Drowned, I drowned
Drowned, I drowned
Drowned, I drowned
Drowned

I should've known that this is how I′d be
I should've known that this is how I′d be
Just my notepad & the beat
Just a grown man with a dream
Mentally I feel I'm kinda weak
It′s been getting hard 4 me to speak
I think I might be losing my belief
I think I might be losing my belief

It took a few words & for months I couldn't handle it
If you heard what I did wit life strangling you
You'd know how I feel, I gambled with the little I had & watched it all disappear
I looked at my hand & it was all into air
I thought I could stand but I could not, I was scared
& All I could have, woulda been lost to the fear
Real shit, type o thing to make you contemplate the kill switch
Flip it real quick, flip it real quick
Do it fast, 1 time, won′t feel shit
Brotherman yo grind won′t yield chips
'Member Showtime what did he say
Tried to touchdown on a shitty lane
I didn′t make, I didn't make, tried 2 swim upstream in the city waves