Introspective

Living feels like a ghost in me
I'm keeping it like a host in me
It's having a blast but wrecks the house
The damage is vast
And still I can't kick it out
The other guests are depending on me
On keeping the party going in me
I can't let them down
The hole is extending
Emotions start to drown
I wish this all would be ending

Can I go to where love is still found?
Feeling low but my feelings don't count
You see I'm in this state in life now
But until I'm dead I won't reach any end or settle down

Thought I was trapped in my own mind
Couldn't accept that you made me blind
Trying to find a sense in life somehow
And it only works if I tell myself it's aimless and full of pointless vows