Lyrics Not OK - María Mena

It's not like I chose this
I was not given a choice
In a room full of stories
Mine was just another voice

How does she do it
Without making any sound?
I cry after hours
And scream when no one is around

Here comes a battle
Here's another uphill climb
So strap on some courage
You should be well prepared this time

Just because I'm still standing
Just because I have survived
Doesn't mean I don't get scared
Or wanna give up every time

'Cause I don't feel like being strong today
I wanna fall apart, sometimes I wanna break
Next time they ask, I'll tell the truth and I'll say
That I'm not ok, that I'm not ok
I don't feel like carrying all this weight
Or being broken around those who can't relate
Next time they ask, I'll tell the truth and I'll say
That I'm not ok, that I'm not-

After he left us
After everything went dark
She's all that matters
She's my only little spark

It's not like I don't want to
Stay in bed, never leave home
But if I don't do it
Chances are, it won't get done

'Cause I don't feel like being strong today
I wanna fall apart, sometimes I wanna break
Next time they ask, I'll tell the truth and I'll say
That I'm not ok, that I'm not ok
I don't feel like carrying all this weight
Or being broken around those who can't relate
Next time they ask, I'll tell the truth and I'll say
That I'm not ok, that I'm not ok

That I'm not ok
That I'm not ok
That I'm not ok
That I'm not ok
(I'm not ok) oh-oh-oh-oh
I'm not ok
I'm not ok
Oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh

God gives His toughest
Battles to the strongest ones
That He built out of courage
In the image of His only Son

I am a soldier
I can take the whole world on
So watch as I fight this
And give Your praise once I have won