Lyrics Note to Self - Mariah the Scientist

S-e-l-f d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e, I need help
I've always been, s-e-l-f-d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e
Can't you tell?

And they talking 'bout love, what is it?
Didn't know it existed
Now they telling me it's within myself
But, baby, what is love?
A figment? Tell me am I imagining shit?
Thinking about the lies I tell myself
I've always been

S-e-l-f d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e, I need help
'Cause I've always been, s-e-l-f-d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e
Can't you tell?
That I've always been

S-e-l-f d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e, I need help
'Cause I've always been, s-e-l-f-d-e-s-t-r-u-c-t-i-v-e
Can't you tell?