Lyrics Paperweight - Mastering Silence

I'm a paperweight I can't take no more
My only friend is my bedroom door
I hate how I feel, I hate how I look
I hate myself, I'm just being real
Locked in my mind, lost perception of time
This paranoia it eats me alive
Locked in my mind, lost perception of time
This paranoia it eats me alive
But I won't give up that easy
I have a family they need me
My son's laugh when my wife plays with my hair
The sunrise the smell of rain in the air
The good times when my friends and family are there

Jumping up and down like a trampoline
I don't understand what's happening
Moving slow like Mr. Mime
Blink of an eye, where's the time?
Stars in the sky lookin' for a sign
Don't know what I'm trying to find
Searching for a piece of mind
Searching for wondering why

I'm a paperweight I can't take no more
Too scared to see what's beyond that door
Can I be happy?
Will I be strong?
Hear my heart in every song
Write it all out so I don't blow up
Write it all out so my mind will shut up
Feelings aren't facts
They sometimes lie
Listen to music to pass the time
Townes Van Zandt Waiting Around to die
Tell it how it is, don't wanna lie
Tell it how it is, I'm barely alive
Sold my soul, got eternal life
Trying to live right, restore my sight
Open my eyes, please cleanse my light
I don't feel alone when you're by my side
I don't feel alone when I don't have to hide

Jumping up and down like a trampoline
I don't understand what's happening
Moving slow like Mr. Mime
Blink of an eye, where's the time?
Stars in the sky lookin' for a sign
Don't know what I'm trying to find
Searching for a piece of mind
Searching for wondering why

Jumping up and down like a trampoline
I don't understand what's happening
Moving slow like Mr. Mime
Blink of an eye, where's the time?
Stars in the sky lookin' for a sign
Don't know what I'm trying to find
Searching for a piece of mind
Searching for wondering why