18

I'm 18 now
Shit it's crazy never thought I'd make it past 16
Cos lately it's been storming, Life really like a dream
I got all this trauma inside me that's the reason I don't speak
So I put it all in rap maybe it pay off and a cop a new patek
All this pain inside me hoping one day it just goes
Take a look at my heart and you'll find alotta holes
I was 16 when I had my first love
Turned 17 and she broke that trust
So here is the story why I can't really love

They go say that they love you and stab you in the back
She said that she loves me then pushed me to the edge
You said it's forever but you really fucking left
Can't say I didn't see it coming, what the fuck would you expect?
Oh you had me thinkin' that I'm worthless
Girl you fucked me up, did you do that shit on purpose?
If she gives you her heart never give yours back
'Cos once you do that shit you gon' never get it back
Yeah I learned that the hard way
Learned that the hard way
Yeah I learned that the hard way

Oh I'm 18 now will the pain go away?
Yeah I'm 18 now I smoke my pain away
Lately I been praying like, God take me away
'Cos my heart is damaged I can't live with all this pain
Wish I could go back to "I felt no pain"
Wish I could go back when I didn't feel so drained
Can't say that I hate you, you helped me find myself
I won't say that I miss you I'm better off by myself
(Yeah yeah yeah)
(Oh I'm better off by myself)
(Nah Nah)