Lyrics redundancy - Nagam

Don't know what's going on anymore
Am I in control
Week flies by in a hazy crawl
It's taking a toll
All this stress I put on myself
There's no end in sight
I'm told everything's going well
That everything will be alright

But my life's a hell
And look it's going great
But why can't you tell
I thought that we were mates
And I see no way to stop this

I sometimes miss those summer times
Where sometimes I'd take a break some summer nights
Lay there
Write some summer lines
I had no worries those summer times

Now I sit here writing wintery whines
About lost weathered memories of wintery times
But whether or not these memories of mine
Will ruin my day is not a choice this time

So what I'm trying to get across is
So I had the start of it like

When I told you your eyes rolled
But still
Anxiety has a tight hold
But still
Just hand me that ice cold beer

Been tryna get lost somewhere
Let's go
Empty buss to nowhere
Let's go
Anywhere that's not right here

Feel like I'm stuck in a maze
Cycle though the city haze
If I'm not working I'm lazy
Stuck in a lockdown daze

Devil on my shoulder won't compromise
Tryna juggle college work and socialize

But my life's a hell
And look it's going great
But why can't you tell
I thought that we were mates
And I see no way to stop this

What was the idea
Fuck
Here what was the idea