Lyrics Fake Smiles - Nevv

I used to drink until the memories of us would fade (fade)
Stupid how I thought that that's the way that I would change (change)
I can move mountains, but you're standing in my way (way)
Laughter's the best medicine and smiles ease the pain
But these fake smiles

Got me lashing out and saying things I shouldn't say
Got me burning bridges down that were so hard to walk across
Got me in my feelings, now, my peers used to manipulate
Me with hopes to watch me slip and watch me fall

But look at me now
Look at the features and look at the crowds
Look at the people who spoke on my name with the foulest intention
Who now put a foot in their mouth
Say I play victim 'cause I cut them off like a hang nail, now, it's ironic
They point the finger at me, I'm the one who they're talking about

Oh, Lord (oh, Lord)
Got these fake smiles around me everyday now
Got these people talking 'bout me, what they say's foul
Sometimes the people that you'd take a bullet for
Are the ones that got you aimed down

Oh, Lord (oh, Lord)
Got these fake smiles around me everyday now
Got these people talking 'bout me, what they say's foul
Sometimes the people that you'd take a bullet for
Are the ones that got you aimed down (aimed down)

I used to write until the memories of us were gone
Crazy how I thought that that's the way that I'd move on
Wounds are bound to heal, but remains are all these scars
If laughter's the best medicine, then my smile's not too strong

'Cause these fake smiles surround me, they empower all my guilt
But I wear mistakes proudly like I'm captain with his shield
And to say I run from problems is like saying I don't feel
I just chose to drop these people who exacerbate my will

You're unsatisfied with life, so you just cling to mine
You put all these walls up but to me, you're just a glass house I could see inside
Funny how your girl says, I'm the bad guy
When the truth is, she don't know the man she sleeps beside

Please advise that I took a step back to redefine
Who's a priority versus? Who's tortures my peace of mind?
I'm not avoiding things, I just made choices that you don't agree with
But honestly, I am just done with your ego, and trying to feed it
If life is a journey that we design
I get the privilege, who joins me, who gets to see it

Oh, Lord (oh, Lord)
Got these fake smiles around me everyday now (day now)
Got these people talking 'bout me, what they say's foul (say's foul)
Sometimes the people that you'd take a bullet for
Are the ones that got you aimed down (tu-tu-tu)

Oh, Lord (oh, Lord)
Got these fake smiles around me everyday now (everyday now)
Got these people talking 'bout me, what they say's foul (what they say's foul)
Sometimes the people that you'd take a bullet for
Are the ones that got you aimed down (got you aimed down)

Why explain myself when your goal's to misunderstand me?
Why go so in depth over feelings you keep devaluing?
Why should I waste my breath on this message that you keep doubting?
And why should I hear you out when your judgement is more than cloudy?

It's flawed, broken fraudulent lost
It's always caught up in women how much that this or that cost's
I put my life in this music, I put my life in my palm
You put your life in that bottle then pin up right on your Instagram wall

See all these fakes smile (fakes smile)
Got me living less allusive while I read between the lines
Got me walking straight narrow, but I'm speaking out of spite
Got me hearing such an earful, I'm the man that you don't like
All I ask is that you please make up your mind

'Cause when I was drunk, all you did was look down on me
Then I got sober and cleaned up my act, now you laugh at me
Talking sarcastically, gossip all causally
Scoff and take jabs at me when I'm not there
Praying for days I fall off, no one catches me
Taxing my patience and taxing my sanity
I am so sick of these fake smiles that keep surrounding me

Oh, Lord (oh, Lord)
Got these fake smiles around me everyday now (everyday now)
Got these people talking 'bout me, what they say's foul (say's foul)
Sometimes the people that you'd take a bullet for
Are the ones that got you aimed down (tu-tu-tu)

Oh, Lord (oh, Lord)
Got these fake smiles around me everyday now (everyday now)
Got these people talking 'bout me, what they say's foul (what they say's foul)
Sometimes the people that you'd take a bullet for
Are the ones that got you aimed down (got you aimed down)

Oh, Lord
I got these fake smiles around me everyday now
Got these people talking 'bout me, what they say's foul
Sometimes the people that you'd take a bullet for
Are the ones that got you aimed down