These Troubles of Mine

(If I was to walk into your life)
(Would I bring these troubles of mine?)

You always wanted me to write you a song
But as usual, my timing's all wrong
So you may never hear it
I loved you for your heart and your spirit
It's ironic
I would never let a soul hurt you
Until I did it
You would never let a thing hurt me
But couldn't see the way you injured me
So easily and frequently
And what it did to me
What a tragedy
You prayed for remedies with such purity
You could see a Version 2 of you and me
Without the issues
Believed in possibility
But I know you and I know me
And I know I've gotta leave
So I'm going
Knowing that you're crushed
Knowing that my heart is gonna bleed
Every time I think of us
But the facts of the matter
Are that blood got spattered
And the walls got padded
And I don't need the madness
I've gotta get whole, and so do you
You know it's true
And there's no more time in this short life to lose
Later, boo
May God bless you in all you do
I will never disappear
I'll be here, but at a distance
If you call me, I'll listen
But don't confuse truth and fiction
Ain't no fixing what's missing
In our description
The depiction of perfection
Was deception
Doesn't take away the blessings
Or erase the memories of our conception
We were exceptional
But time passed
Didn't grow into our roles
We collapsed, and that's that
It's so sad
It's so right, but it hurts so bad
We had a life, now we have a death
That's where we left it
Please hear the message
There's no extras
Nothing left to question
I'm not coming home
So please don't expect it
Gotta break the cycle
Someday you'll see that
Right now it's clouds
And heaviness around
Feeling psycho
But grab your Bible
And let's pray
That God's plan is underway

(If I was to walk into your life)
(Would I bring these troubles of mine?)

Your shit and my shit just didn't mix
But for 16 years we tried to make it stick
That's a long time, kid
We grew up together
You were all mine
And we both signed up forever
Built a home and a family
Never was easy
Came from different cultures
Came from different countries
Your efforts were endless
But still had limits
I was too complicated
But you were my princess
Fire and ice
I was too fucking nice
Your strength was immense
And your fights were reckless
My methods were defensive
I don't play all that
You always put me first
And were the first to attack
Always begged me to talk
While you were talking smack
And the walls I built
Would never crumble or crack
My efforts and acts always lacked
And I gave you my back
And I'm sorry for that
Hid behind passion
But I know damage
I can read the captions
What we did was manage
You adapted to sadness
Did my best acting
Failing you was an option I couldn't imagine
'Til I could
When does a broken bond break?
Woke up one day covered it in cuts
Must escape
Had to face what was real and what was fake
Knew I should
But I never had the strength
So I wait, and I wait
The pain gets numb, and the scars add up
Then the years go by, and the love's not enough
Then it's different
Made me feel the guilt like a sickness
I owed you the truth at a minimum
The courage I lacked cost us both in the end
But I swear I had the best of intentions
We cannot begin again
My dear friend, I'm so deeply sorry
But sometimes the end is the end of the story

(If I was to walk into your life)
(Would I bring these troubles of mine?)
(If I was to walk into your life)
(Would I bring these troubles of mine?)