Lyrics Its Not Getting Better - Ohxzy

Cause I been going through it
I don't know if you can feel this
Shoutout my boys from day one sticking with me they the realest
I use to cut my fucking skin, I'm hanging from the ceiling
Told me ima' die but never gave me fucking treatment
And I, hate myself for the past, it fucking haunts me
Memories and enemies, befriend and fucking taunt me
Every demon that I see is always running right towards me
Didn't wanna hang myself the devil fucking forced me and I
Hate myself, but I'd love me in the dirt
You told me that you loved me but you added to the hurt
You put the blade to my wrist, you spat the blood on my shirt
You put the nail in the coffin, and you laughed at the hearse
I ain't loved, it's just a word, why speak when you're not heard
This love is never different
Denying that you're first
Nobody wants to help you but they always want a verse
Talk to me when you're being force fed by a nurse

Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
And I ain't getting better
I don't think that I'm ever gonna get better
Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
I don't think that I'm ever gonna get better

Cause I'm the human astray
They smoke me up they stub me out
I use to cry at night
Whenever people asked me out
Burns on my hands
What you know about a grand in your pants
Spent it all on designer
Just to feel like a man
And every girl around me had a plan
I just wanted love, had me feeling like a scam
Maybe one day my scars will slowly start to shift
But before I even started I decided that I quit

Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
And I ain't getting better
I don't think that I'm ever gonna get better
Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
Cause I ain't getting better
I don't think that I'm ever gonna get better