Guilty

Dear God, I know through You all things are possible
You told me just to believe, and I'll live forever
Sometimes I stray, but You deliver from evil
That's real

Oh God, I'm tryin' to make my cash flow filthy
Before You pull my card or this cruel world kill me
I scream Your name when I'm in trouble, I know You feel me
And since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed
God, I'm tryin' to make my cash flow filthy
Before You pull my card or this cruel world kill me
I scream Your name when I'm in trouble, I know You feel me
And since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed

What's the real meaning of life? No one knows
Decide between wrong and right, and cons and pros
Now suppose that most could step in my shoes and walk at least a mile

See all the good and bad times, and still crack a smile
And all the while, we still livin' in the last days
Can't help but continue to think about
Sellin' saint, and man cryin' pain
Another phase of chasin' dreams, though it seems to unfold
And everything that shines in my hood, damn sure ain't gold
This world is cold, but it keeps goin' round and round
So I make the best through all the stress in this ghetto battleground
By surroundin' myself with hustlers and criminals, we the same

Lord, I feel I'm wrong for sinnin', but do I blame it on the game?
Could I change given a chance? It's really hard to say

I'm driven by faith along the way to get me through the day

Can only say that 20-To-Life and K can make it past the storm

Bein' judged since birth make me wish I was never born
'Cause man, it's hard

Oh God, I'm tryin' to make my cash flow filthy
Before You pull my card or this cruel world kill me
I scream Your name when I'm in trouble, I know You feel me
And since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed
God, I'm tryin' to make my cash flow filthy
Before You pull my card or this cruel world kill me
I scream Your name when I'm in trouble, I know You feel me
And since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed

I preach Bible scriptures, John 3:16

In a nutshell, it's what tell us what life mean

Never been to Sunday school, but fool seven days a week
Meet a man, my inner self, hit the knees and trade speak
Grandma always on my back, write a song and praise the Man

I can see her in Saint Agnes, head down and raised hand
Yearnin' for the meanin' of life, and who's above it
While Allah, Jesus Christ, if you like it, I love it
I'm hearin' what You sayin', but these streets ain't playin'

I planted a few seeds, and these jobs ain't payin'
It's the first of the month, and everybody needs the man
So the devil in me, product of society
Is forced to do the street thang to stay on my feet
I ask the Lord to hover over me, the hustle don't eat
Imagine Monte, Kendall and Donnie with no shoes on they feet
Oh yeah, but since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed

Oh God, I'm tryin' to make my cash flow filthy
Before You pull my card or this cruel world kill me
I scream Your name when I'm in trouble, I know You feel me
And since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed
God, I'm tryin' to make my cash flow filthy
Before You pull my card or this cruel world kill me
I scream Your name when I'm in trouble, I know You feel me
And since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed

Now it seems in more ways, I feel the streets gon' be the death of me
Fools testin' me, and these money problems stressin' me
My pastor's blessin' me, but it don't really seem to help
Though I've seen him tryin' to win with these cards that was dealt
And what's left for Black and P.S.K. in this time of desperation?
Close calls when I question the ball brings about hesitation
What we face in the years to come, no one knows
When it's our time, are we happy with the life that we chose?

I'm dependin' on You to hear my story and see me through
I'm defendin' You too, and all my glory be to You
Sometimes I'm livin' foul, but through these trials and tribulations
I know I can call 'cause You deliver from temptation
My foundation, and I'm in love with our relations
This is pure fascination 'cause most of life is meditation
This real world in a physical form, that's what I'm facin'
And since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed

Oh God, I'm tryin' to make my cash flow filthy
Before You pull my card or this cruel world kill me
I scream Your name when I'm in trouble, I know You feel me
And since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed
God, I'm tryin' to make my cash flow filthy
Before You pull my card or this cruel world kill me
I scream Your name when I'm in trouble, I know You feel me
And since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed

God, I'm tryin' to make my cash flow filthy
Before You pull my card or this cruel world kill me
I scream Your name when I'm in trouble, I know You feel me
And since this the life I lead, I choose to bleed