Lyrics Pretend - ProFoundXIII

Can't cover up that heart to long
Cause I know, that pain coming in
Lately I see that rain coming in
And that fame coming in
Lord knows that I've been working hard
I don't gotta do it with a squad or fucking body guard
I'm my protection
I'm God's blessing
I'm God's lesson
Young nigga stuck to his roots I give the street affection
Took so many L's in the past that I can't accept rejection
When I tried to marry my goals life had to scream objection
Me and my father we still ain't speaking up
Me and old friends we still ain't syncing up
Me and my sister been hella distant (Huh)
I wanna forgive her but I just can't forget (Huh)
You can only be betrayed by the ones you love
That means the greatest source of pain is from the ones you trust
I got a lot that's on my brain that I can't wait to bust
But I don't think that talking now would really be enough
I watched my sister pick a nigga over blood that's tough
My niggas fell out, split they ways and left me solo bruh
I really gave a hoe my heart man I was fucking up
But I'm switching up I swear that I gave loving up
I ain't saying fuck y'all niggas I just outgrew you
Y'all treated me someway that I would never treat you
It hurt me more cutting you because I love you
But I rather end it now before I hate you
And that's the damn truth, what I gotta lie for?
Ever since we cut ties a nigga learned to smile more
You can keep the fake love
That's how niggas die more
Clocking in my last effort
God knows I tried more

Listen
I know we ain't talk in a minute
Listen
I know that our bond keep on shifting
I just wanna go and see the stars in a wraith
I don't want my love for you to turn into hate
Listen
I'm just sick and tired of pretending

I'm only running for a Grammy not no fucking Oscar
Is it hard to ask for people just to love me proper
I felt like people liked me more when I talk bout choppas
But then I grew to hate my self so I had to put a stop
Holding on to love and all this trust can make a gangsta cry
My daddy tried to kill my mom and never told me why
I watched my mama lay in blood at my youngest eyes
It got traumatized
The truth it left me paralyzed

Listen
I know we ain't talk in a minute (Ahh)
Listen
I know that our bond keep on shifting
I just wanna go and see the stars in a wraith
Hopefully the money can wash all my pain (Ahh)
Listen
I'm just sick and tired of the pretending