Lyrics WhyDoesNothingseemToLast? - Prxjek

Never seem to last,
(Every time I make friends)
A couple months pass,
See, that's (when the trail ends)
Snakes in the grass, (had to cut to
See the serpents)
Can't distinguish friends from enemies
(I can't be certain)
My only healing process when I (pour my heart through verses)
If we being real, I feel like I ain't got no purpose,
I hate myself,
I don't even like me as a person, barely getting any sleep
I'm always tossing, turning
Don't even socialize cause I know it's gone cause me hurt
Cause people come and go, from all these years that's what I learned
Real with others, but the realness
They do not return
Kindness my weakness, fighting demons
Overthinking things
Trying hard to not succumb to my thoughts frequently
Broke my own heart, to be heartless,
Darkness, it feed on me
I Rather be alone with the all lights off
Leave me be
False Confidence, it cover up my insecurities
Been having suicidal thoughts
Since I was like fifteen,
Depression like adhesive,
How it always stick with me
Music the only reason I ain't fucking
Ended things, but I still question if anybody
Would be missing me
I Talk to fans, and I be happy but the moment brief

I'm anti social but it's funny I want company
Cause when I see, somebody
I can barely fucking speak
And I don't even feel like I belong there like I need to leave,
And lock myself inside my room like that's the only place for me,
Where I could be myself at least, or feel accepted cause I'm weak
And haven't socialized in years so I just feel like I'm a freak, fuck.
I just Feel like I'm a freak
Fuck anxiety, fuck depression
Fuck all of this stress
All this pain that I feel in this heart in
My chest, really feeling like I'm heartless
Don't even know where my heart is.