Lyrics Merry - Pyrophoria

No I get the kids at ten
That's how it's always been
Why are we doing this again
Get your fucking ass out of bed that's when
You won't see them at all then
Yeah well fuck you it's 10am
Father and a real gem
Just shut the fuck up; I'll take them

Fucking mayhem
I don't blame them
For being shitheads when we made him
Raise them
Never forgave him
Caved in
Day in
Day out trade in
Game ends
Make ends
Candles not at the same end
Same trend
Escaped him
How to replace him
I hate him
I seethe, bleeding fountain pen
I lay down, held like in a pin
God damn holidays again

The drummers drum on the twelfth
Always war when the cards are dealt
I felt my mental health
Undo its seatbelt
Mom is demented and helped
By drinking herself
Unwell
And with zeal
To brain damage that will never heal
Amnesiac who can't feel
Wrong or deal
With herself or anything real
She got a raw deal
She can steal
Memories from nowhere; memories ideal
58; surreal
We sit down for our meal
She talks and it's unreal
Jesus won't take the wheel
When you're not to drive an automobile
I don't want to see these people I peel
The seal of my mind to reveal
Frayed nerves of steal
They talk; I do not hear
It's holiday cheer
No I'm still alone this year
Still no job after a broken career
I put on weight, it does appear
Mom asks the same thing we made clear
I feel like I've hit a deer
I don't know how to steer
I just veer
Or I'm the deer that came too near
Headlight eyes, but no fear
The wreckage was my premiere
There went another year
I never wanted children yet they're here
I forgot their presents the reindeer
Got hurt; they'll never fucking appear
Santa had a shitlist; he was austere
You get what you get kids don't persevere
Don't shed a single tear
It's life; don't interfere
You can't steer
You can't steer
Mommy will be right back dear
I shift my car into the highest gear
The miracle is how fast I can disappear