Lyrics Sometimesland - Pyrophoria

There's a place I used to go to
Place I used to go to
Place I use to go
Wouldn't you like to know
Never grow up I couldn't help it though

Mother screaming in my head
She screams at night in her bed
There is black water I tread
I think I am better off dead

I cried one time because we all die
She said there's a place we go to in the sky
I still don't know why
I was glad or was I?
What was her alibi
Was there a place for me to nullify

These songs are saws
I want no applause
This is my story there are dropped jaws
These songs are gauze
My mother is fifty-seven and she gnaws
She is demented now from what she caused
The dark of her has claws
Her memory evaporates not fogs
Can't run but they think her mind jogs
Her mind and her brain are just at odds
Go on and pray to all the gods
Tell her fairy tales and she just nods

This album is not made
To watch fade
It should be played
Like you hold a blade
It was meant to abrade
In that I am not afraid
I am the girl that strayed
I will not be portrayed
As the girl who stayed

I don't know where to go, age twenty-eight
I ran so hard away it got too late
Don't want to see her again, may not have to wait
Why does she remember me when I don't communicate
She forgot what she did and I don't commiserate
There's a storm front she can vacate
There's a drawn out end I anticipate
Memories bleed, they don't acclimate
I can't look at her for the hate

Sometimesland is where I go to hide
Life is jagged on the in and outside