Lyrics Ruin - Pyrophoria

I don't check my bank my account
That shit seems like the wrong amount
This is an open and close case
In that savings no longer saves face
I did not brace
Myself for a chase
Not like the bank but the race
To get last place
While getting a face
Full of fucking mace
No no I was never a nurse
It's doctor bitch, and there's your hearse
It just got worse
Not like a stolen purse
Social security card curse
Who am I in the verse
I only have words
But not verbs
My music disturbs
I am kicked to curbs
I do this because I have to purge
I am on the verge
Of a new life to submerge
I cannot merge
New with old and resurge
I don't have the same urge
I am older I am bolder
I smolder but I am a cold shoulder
Ruin is in the eyes of the beholder

I would have never made waves
Drowning in that phase
What's the phrase
Ain't there a trail to blaze

White girls can't rap
Well I am now so how's that
I'm tired of falling into a trap
Not like a hi hat
But like who am I in this act
No who are you to ask
I will wear no mask
I am not cast
To be the last laugh
I'm past that
There's a a gap at
My feet and I rap
Over a beat
I made with this cheap
Scratch sheet
But I keep
It going because
Life will not defeat
And I never hit delete
My song is never complete
But take a seat
And meet
The girl who rambles the street
And is obsolete
They say freak
Well I'm on a streak
And I cannot speak
For the weak

I would have never made waves
Drowning in that phase
What's the phrase
Ain't there a trail to blaze

So I come to you now as a new me
This is not who I'd thought I'd be
I think this is better though; I am free
There is no longer we
I do what I do because
It suits what I once knew
To be tried and true
I am not who
Who are you
Not how but what do you do
This is a poem you can see through
Eyes are not a window
No my songs have been though
I let under my skin show
It's been a bit of a shit show
But my answer is no
I would not go
Back though

I would have never made waves
Drowning in that phase
What's the phrase
Ain't there a trail to blaze