Regulating

All of my questions led me to
Second guessing
Hard to see it until it's worth addressing
Fake brothers with a thirst
Showing me their worst
Someone need to learn a lesson
I can't be violent
So I gotta cut em off, be silent
Trying to live a good life that's vibrant
Everything about me is refinement
And realignment
Need me to sign it so you can see it in ink?
No one tell me how to think
Still I be staring at walls and looking for cause
To things I'm trying to shrink
The daily objective
I can feel it that I'm getting protective
The medicine is never really effective
But psilocybin got the boy introspective
I said it before
I'll say it again
I'm a fucking work in progress
That do not deserve the nonsense
Though it happens to find me
Oh this shit is so timely
How it settles and chooses
On who is due for a medal
And who is due for some bruises
So Here's the deuces
Im escaping conclusion
And taking risk
There's lessons from the bottom
Where the cold wind is brisk
I'm never one to fold
Or be told that I gotta give control
If I wanna make your list

Only speak in peace
Some say I'm regulating
Searching for the good when I look in your eyes
I mean It's how you gotta be 'cause this life devastating
And it's hard to be human but it's all compromise

I ain't tryna dance no more
I ain't tryna dance no more
I ain't tryna dance for the camera
Tryna dance for a dollar
No I ain't tryna dance no more

I listened to bad advice and I got played, sob story
Guess that kind of shit can happen when you want glory
It's mandatory to be tested
But I'm well rested now
So I requested give me a second chance
Better on second glance
My pen it has been enhanced
I sat with a bitter stance
But had to relearn conveying emotion
Licking my wounds
In fact, I'm stitching it too
'Cause I don't believe in the notion
Anybody gonna do it except it for you
Things already in motion
I get too worked up, I know
Jealousy my enemy
Build it proper, build it slow
Quite the price for something free
Hard to wrap around your finger
That's the way it's supposed to be
Always potent when it come from the debris