reflection

I can see you in my reflection
I thought that you and I were destined
But I struggle getting your attention
Maybe I should find someone to flex with
I can see you in my reflection
I thought that you and I were destined
But I struggle getting your attention
Maybe I should find someone to flex with

Holding off
Lately I been thinkin bout holding off
These memories from me 'cause I don't show resolve
I never seen me weak like this, I'm so alarmed
Said I'm so alarmed, now I'm so devolved
Look, I never thought you were who I'd get into
And I never thought you'd cut it like it's simple
And I never thought you'd blow me off, now I'm alone - yeah
Now I'm alone
Voices in my head taking full control
Wondering bout who you with and what you on
This silence way too loud, I need a megaphone
I need to carry on, but my sickness set in stone
Yeah - September blues coming at my throat
Like that .45
From that Baba I compete with who just pulled it out his thigh

I can see you in my reflection
I thought that you and I were destined
But I struggle getting your attention
Maybe I should find someone to flex with
I can see you in my reflection
I thought that you and I were destined
But I struggle getting your attention
Maybe I should find someone to flex with

Insecurities coming back to haunt me
Like, who is he, why's he always calling?
Don't know why I thought that we would work
When I know I see myself in you and I'm a curse
Whoa, said I'm so, throwed
Liquor so, cold, I'm goin numb, mm
Codeine got me dancing in the moonlight
All the smoke and paani get my mood right, oh
Look, I know that I'm not too bright
But if I see him, swear I'll start a fist fight
Kiss my, eyes and tell me you'll make, it right
If I, drown in this LSD and get high
Rip my, chest open, jaaneman I'll give my
Whole heart til I'm skin and bones
Crazy

Why do I have to die for you to notice me
Notice me
Notice me, notice me, yeah
Notice me