Lyrics disappear (feat. Lxnely & Art of Creation) - Rain Clouds

Look
I wish that I could just go and leave
I wanna disappear
But they think that I'm make-believe
I'm sitting in my room
Writing as they teasing me
They call failure and everything
Do I just believe?
That I could make a change
Fuck that my life's insane
I can't stop thinking bout exes
What could they see in me?
Now I'm thinking of the past
What they'd do to me
If I were somebody else
Are they still hating me?

This is the day
I'm flying away
Stay in a loop like a crochet
Stop
Said you loved me, then you dropped
Clean you from my life, like a mop
In the end you used me, like a prop
Feel like I'm paralysed
Feel like I'm petrified
Feel like I'm terrorised
In my mind
Love I never find
I stay confined
We never were entwined
I had you then you left
I was so bereft
Stole my heart isn't that theft?

Spending all that time
You should worry about yourself
Walking through those gates
Still find yourself in hell
Thinking that you know me
I was your wishing well
Our time was a mistake
More than you could ever tell
Relapse
Time back
Don't wanna bring it back
But you brought it back
All the baggage I'm carrying this month
You just load it up
And you cock it back
Do I look like a gun
Think I'm on standby
When I'm not around
But yet I still show up
Charge you for a double feature
But for them it's free
Cause baby you getting a charge