Lyrics Dear Diary - Ramirez

Hook]
Momma telling me I'll be okay
She don't understand I'm living day by day
Pop another pill to feel ok
Thinking bout' suicide everyday
I've been through this route
What's my life about
Popping pills and living life full of doubt
Praying on the edge my bed
Hoping I could get responses
Battle my illness alone, crying a river I'm honest
Oh no
I don't know which way to go
I don't even have my home
In the dark is where I roam
I've been stuck and all alone

Popping these pills and I'm asking God why
Do I have urges to just wanna die
Receiving no answers cos' God is a lie
Look in my eyes
See pain that's inside
I done lost a couple friends
For the way nigga been acting
No faking
No pretending
I just really wanna fucking end this
Oh no
Grabbing my gun and I point at my dome
I'm telling myself, be easy, let go
Don't pull on the trigger there's much to hold on
But these pills they kick in and I just can't move on
Lost in my ways and I try to forget
All of this sadness and all this regret
I look to my mom and I tell her like this
Yo' son is a fuck up
Yo' son can't do shit

My Momma telling me I'll be okay
She don't understand I'm living day by day
Pop another pill to feel ok
I thinking bout' Suicide everyday

Stand in closet
I'm tying a noose
You living a lie
I'm stuck in the truth
Faking a smile but depression the root
I try to be happy but I can't it's a fluke
Love for my friends but they don't know I'm through
I don't see no sun cause I stay in my room
I look in the mirror
The vision gets clearer
Anxiety, got me trapped in this shit too

My Momma telling me I'll be okay
She don't understand I'm living day by day
Pop another pill to feel ok
I thinking bout' Suicide everyday
I've been through this route
What's my life about
Popping pills and living life full of doubt
Praying on the edge my bed
Hoping I could get responses
Battle my illness alone, crying a river I'm honest
Oh no
I don't know which way to go
I don't even have my home
In the dark is where I roam
I've been stuck and all alone