Lyrics I ain't never felt like this. - Raw.Deen

I was hurting, I got slept on
I ducked my head
I was working, I got slept on
I prayed and said
Lord change me I need a lesson
To make it then I ignored it all and just wept on
I stayed in bed

All the homies saw it and kept on
I can't blame em
We tackling on depression
From every angle
I'm lonely but know I'm loved though
Physical monk but inside my soul imma cut throat
My male figures is callous would shoot for me
But probably judge if I shed a tear
I grew up tough, I got fucked up for admitting fear
Scared as fuck
Pump faking tryna make it through every year
Not enough, tryna get validated from every peer
Made me pissed
What do they got that I don't possess
Yeah it made me sick
Why they all go and I'm getting left
This a villains arc
One day I'll make sure all of you dead
I don't want friends
Entitlement go to everyone's head
I got a 9 and I would play with the trigger laying in bed
Looking down the barrel
Pressing the shit up against my head
Tryna feel something
What would my folks do if I was dead
I don't get the flowers
How would they speak of me in remembrance
Would they pump fake
Smile and my mom face and pretend
Would they post me
And make our bond bigger than what it is
Would they hold me, close to they heart and love me for years
Or would they smoke me, niggas claim bodies that isn't theirs
I hope you miss me
For all of this giving of shit I did
I'm not done, impacting or giving this shit to kids
I got lil ones
Tryna be like me and I think me ain't shit
That's the difference
It's about who you seem and not who you is
Bear witness
All that I speak will always be real shit
Hells image
I close my eyes and that's what I deal with
Jail sentence, thief in the night if I want some real money
Broke as fuck but still I got niggas that try to steal from me
What do they see in me that I do not see in me
Air head, Air Jordan's on in a BnB
I been to the door, I knocked and they ain't believe in me
Shook hands before and they ain't know what they could do with me
Pure flame, aggression and pain
Changing my game
Bro said to stay the same but I'm scorn now
I'm hurt, and all the shit you did worked
I'm morphed now
I cried, I let all them tears rain, I'm mad now
The sadness went away right with the goodness I'm bad now
I let too much slide this time around you flagged down
And we gon have to box if you come for my pad now
I felt small so went & got guns that was bigger than my problems
More headaches, less money with more issues
Inflation, gas prices up the saga continues
Poverty, swallowing everything I get into
Oddities, I ain't never felt like this
Policies, I ain't never felt like this
Economy, I ain't never felt like this
Democracy, I ain't never felt like this
Equality, I ain't never felt like this
Prophecy, I ain't never felt like this