Lyrics Dear Future Self - Realname Kash

Dear future self I need your intervention
I been growin' and progressin' but I have so many questions
Lookin' for answers or suggestions
I hope you'll tell me what you can but understand your discretion

Dear future self did I learn to balance
Am I the best version of me and was it worth the challenge
Yay
Did I learn to enjoy the small wins
Do I have kids
How many
Pets count too
Did I start to give my all in all that I do
Did I stop worryin' if my paycheck came through
Cause my debt too high
And I'm livin' paycheck to paycheck
Am I still stressed do I get rest do I do what's best
Or am I dead
What age did I make it to
If you told me mid 40's that'd be cool
And it's really sad to think that
But when I think back
I can't believe I'm still alive in this very moment
Time to own it
I go to therapy now
Did I stick with it
Am I still obsessed with quick riches
Did I stop making excuses and quit bitchin'
Do I let my wife rest while I do the dishes
Or is she in the kitchen
Am I still married
Is she glad that she stayed
Is my wife happy
And was it worth the wait
Did I get her all I promised
And if I didn't
Am I workin' my fuckin' ass off to make sure she fuckin' gets it
Do I still fear poverty do I still fear death
Did I learn how my thoughts and energy manifest
Am I still an addict and do I feel obsessed
Or do I wake up positive and just do my best
Did my dad beat cancer
Did my friend stop drinking
Did my mom come home
Is she stayin' or leavin'
Did I defeat my demons
Or do I feel them creeping
Can I stand on a ledge and not feel like leaping
For real

Fuck this shit fuck it
Can't do this anymore
Can't do this
Please help me please please
Fuck
Answer me
Please please answer me

Dear present self here's some words of advice
You learned to control your vices
And yes you're happy
So is your wife
And every night you say goodnight to a couple kids
And a couple pets too
You stress less and your bills aren't past due
Now I don't speak to negativity
So understand I won't answer every single thing you said to me
But you're doing better mentally
Cause honestly the old me and the present you is dead to me
Remember to exercise and it's healthier if you cook
And therapy's been great don't let it go overlooked
When life packs a punch you dodge and write hooks
Say fuck you to judgement write your own book
I hope this gives you clarity in moments you feel dark
I have one last thing to say before we part
I just want to thank you from the bottom of my heart
Cause hitting rock bottom gave yourself a new start