Lyrics I Tried - Rhxs

Every day that I wake up pain inside
Yeah I've still got that pain in my life
Back then I was just trying to get by
Now days I'm just trying to stay high
Now days I'm just trying to stay free
But labels are calling trying to sign me
It's so hard declining when I gotta break free
Trying to make p and break through briefly
That's all I need
And I'm already up on the tv's
And I'm never gonna stop till I got a lot of money
And I've got everything that I need for my team
I've got a big dream
I'm not stopping I'm not stopping I'm full steam
I'm full stream I've been train wrecked but now I'm full speed

Yeah it's crazy
Lives been fucked up lately
I lost a lot of people that I love and then my ops had baby's
Wavy
Ha I've not been lately
I've been pushing positive vibes
And trying get better things out of my life
Trying to move forward and trying to do better
Remember back when I wrote that letter
Glad that I never did finish that letter
But I still done let her
Yeah I could of done much better
Fuck it that should of been the end of my letter
Yeah I could of done much better
Fuck it that should of been the end of my letter
Capital b full stop send letters
I don't need no more tears on my sweater
Nah
I don't need no more tears on my sweater

Ok
Back to a time I was happy back back a long long way
You never really knew about this but I've been struggling every day
I've got terrible thoughts and I'm losing weight
And I don't know how much more I can take
Cause I'm fading away just trying to escape
Trying to get free in my head make sense
Cause it don't make sense
Nah it don't make sense

This pain inside it's so immense
And it hurts me more as time commences
So really I just had to end this cycle before I end it all
And I don't wanna break and fall
I don't wanna end this all
I don't wanna break and fall
Nah I don't wanna end this all
Tried to but I guess I stalled
In my heart still got that hole
Tried to rip it out my chest and when I did I hit that floor
Cause I can't take more
I can't take no more
Tried to rip it out my chest and when I did I hit that floor
I can't take no more
I can't take no more

Fuck it I'll still keep trying though
Not a single night that I'm lying low
I'll just write my songs while driving home
Sticks and bricks and sticks and stones
I'm feeling like I've really grown
I've changed myself I'm really doing better now I'm in my zone
Chilling
Yeah so fuck negativity
Back in my own zone back with ability
Still got lots of speed and agility
I'm an a star and you're a liability
I'm invincible I'm invince a me
Don't test me you won't come close g
I've lived with strife and I'm living with pain
So now you all better listen up closely

Bang
Goes the strap to my head no jam
Because I've done lived all that I can
And I've done tried all that I can
And I think that I've tried too much
But I won't stop trying
Just know everyday that I'm living
Inside I swear I'm dying
Every night I swear I'm crying
Sick of tears and sick of drying
Off my eyes from all these tears cause really I just can't keep trying
Sick of all this weed I'm buying
Smoking but still not complying
Wish that I could switch it up but I can't stop myself from sliding
Trapped inside this ocean tidal
I don't swim and I don't like to
Gravity pulling us hyper
World aparts come close with lightening
Perfect timing meeting fighting
Waves come crashing down it's frightening
My future's brightening I won't stop writing