Lyrics Own Risk - Risk feat. Ashlee Raynee

I can′t be at two places at the same time
And so I gotta make choices based on my damn grind
Sitting back contemplating about a mass robbery
Pop a pill on the counter and leave a dead body
Like I didn't know what′s really happening
Like everything I do is just scrapping
Like, like the reason why the hood loves me
Cause we was raised from the Phoenix ashes
We was taught to be obnoxious
But then I chose to be an ill-Matic
And my woman probably even missed her own wedding
And I was running out of time probably
See everything I do is just on me, I don't blame it on anything godly
I put my emotions in a thin casket,
Shit and I throw em in the dead valley
Coz I, I been through a lot, I did all my time
Singing I, Never depended on You, Him or Her, and that's facts
Singing I, I′m getting this self-made money
I′m getting this self-made love and
That's why I′m doing it at my own risk
Basically in everything, I'm just being tested
Back to the point whereby I might feel helpless
Back to the point whereby I might act reckless
Back to the point, I might snatch that necklace
See I′m surrounded by my instincts
I'm hoping a dollar would turn a day into a great meal
I really didn′t mean to get pills
I gave it to my girlfriend she ain even deserve it
And it haunts me every morning
Hearing ghosts of Fiola Blanca while I'm still snoring
I know she forgave me but I am still haunted
I look in the mirror but I am still clouded
I breathe in let me rethink
Is this risk really worth it
And do I trust my emotions
Damn, so many questions
Coz I, I been through a lot, I did all my time
Singing I, Never depended on You, Him or Her, and that's facts
Singing I, I′m getting this self-made money
I′m getting this self-made love and
That's why I′m doing it at my own risk
Disadvantages in advantages
Where there are curses, there are blessings
So I walk in the dark and hoping for moon Light
And life screws us all so I better come right
I live for something or I Die Tryin
Find me at the movement blowing trees, talking cash time
Paranoid, my mind's armed up
You can mess with anything except man′s grind
You can waste on anything except a man's time
Live in the hood, everything is cold sign
Searching niggas to get a prime dime, coz we never had a gold mine
I am I reach
I′ve been through a lot, I did all my time
I am I reach
Never depended on You, Him or Her, and that's facts
I'm getting this self money
I′m getting this self-made love and
That′s why I'm doing it at my own risk