Lyrics ChildHood Tribulations - Running Alpha

Fantasizing about a fairytale that I wish I lived
So much childhood tribulations I just can't give in
I sit down and ask myself where did this begin?
I seen my people barely making it I can't keep a grin
I had no water Goddamn I needed to sprout
No Care No Love
I jumped up and then went out about
At some point I just know that I fell out of bounds
I was moving too fast that I started unveiling my past

A youngin outside I was full of it, living in crime
Even though my soul hurt I made sure, that I never waste time
I found an approach then I realized
I'm a go and stack me some spend it with the ones whose mind is something alike to Mine

That's why I cut some ties Nobody really working that paper look at me I'm trying
The struggle is seen in my face
I'm stuck inside endangerment ways
My people tell me to restart
Bundles and suits is how I'm paid

I been working my mind and this life been crazy to me
At age 11 being reckless, always hopping windows
It's like this life is meant to be, how could I not forget those
All of this trauma in my head, how could I not forget those

Memories, when we were young had no shoes and ripped socks
Always wanted more but taught to make the best of what we got
Me and my brother Z, talk about this stuff a lot
Growing up, we didn't have much, wasn't fun

Now we just sit back and laugh like fuck
Shit wasn't easy, we had it so rough
Could've been worse, but it had to come
Look at everything it just begun
Took us some time but we ain't stopping now
Found what I loved turned it to my route
People can hate on the kid but I know I'm gone make it and I'm really gone get me a Crown

Now just look at this I found a blueprint
Everything I dreamed seemed nonexistent
When I turned Eighteen I made a difference
Now come look at me momma I'm gifted

I'm so glad my mom and dad filed up for divorce
So many fights My siblings seen we couldn't do it no more
My pops would be too busy working we still ended up poor
I did just what I could to help, started Moving that Work

If my momma seen what I did she'd be so upset
She always told me "Niño, no te pongas a vender"
I had to do it Sorry momma this just how it is
When you live inside a struggle filled with no Remorse

Fantasizing about a fairytale that I wish I lived
So much childhood tribulations I just can't give in
I sit down and ask myself where did this begin?
I seen my people barely making it I can't keep a grin
I had no water Goddamn I needed to sprout
No Care, No Love
I jumped up and then went out about
At some point I just know that I fell out of bounds
I was moving too fast, that I started unveiling my past