Lyrics Bleed Through - SOJA

I keep telling myself its just not in my hands
(This seems outta my hand man)
For losing you slowly was just not in my plan
(This wasn't supposed to happen like this)
I look to the sky sometimes, just hoping you're there
Just hoping you're... there (not this time)
Cause every time I pick up a pen its all you
And there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us two
Pages turn so fast like all those pages do
Your words that bleed through
Your words that bleed through...
Oooh!
Get back in my arms and just hanging by my side
Losing hold of you has left me dry
Tell me where you run to and where do you hide
Know you've never once left my mind
Tell yourself I'm sorry for these things that I've done
Oh! tell yourself never seen that love that gone no
Tel yourself its over now and not to run
Just tell yourself I'm sorry for what I've done
Cause every time I pick up a pen its all you
And there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us two pages turn so fast like all those pages do
Your words that bleed through
Your words that bleed through... Yeaah!
Listen while I'm talking, I don't do it too much
Can't help feeling that came between us
Whatever happened to the way that it was
One thing I cant have is what I want
Who decided its gonna end up this way?
Who decided that you could not stay?
You wont be here by the end of my day
Cause' i cant even listen to words that i say
But every time I pick up a pen its all you
And there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us two pages turn so fast like all those pages do
Your words that bleed through
Your words that bleed through...
Ooouooh!
I swear you never really miss it till its half gone
Then you tighten up your grip trying yo hold on
Didn't really appreciate it when its in your arms then you can relate to every word in your song
Like was i wrong but i know I'm right but in hindsight, I blame the limelight
Maybe i just needed time to get my mind right maybe we'll reconnect when the times right
I'm trying to think about the causes was i too bossy exactly where the fault is?
I was told to step in love with some caution cause love and shit is no difference in the darkness
But love is where the heart is you can see the blood as its dripping through the gausses
So i guess I fell outta love with a smile and more love with applause's
And its quiet in my house
Your silence is my home and everything reminds me that I am all alone
Its quiet where you used to be
And now that you're gone, there's not a word but a dail tone
Well its quiet when
I'm drinking
Its quiet when i smoke
Its__when I'm eating, always I sleep all alone
Its quiet now it's louder than i sit still like a stone.
Ooh... only from my dreams where you wont go
Every time I pick up a pen its all you
And there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us two pages turn so fast like all those pages do
Your words that
Bleed through
Your words that
Bleed through...
Oooh!
Don't pick up that pen, no I, all I say
Don't look in the mirror, at all I am
The pages turn, the pages burn and its all cause of you
(It was tears that were soaking these pages, words that left me bleeding and pleading??)
How did i get in this predicament??
Was I influenced by the benefits
Cause' I was hitting on so many chicks lovin' you and leavin you was the only sentiment
But I guess I wasn't ready for ya cause I'm rubbing your feet, cooking spaghetti for ya
Taking you to parks winning teddy's for ya but in my heart I'm thinking there's someone better foy ya
But my hearts like no not this again cut it out black, you know how this will end
And I swear I really was listening but my dick was telling and my heart was just whispering
So you know who I listened to now my hearts bitching cause hes missing you
Got my eyes staring at some old flicks of you when my nose swears that it can still smell the scent of you
And my soul is saying damn she was meant for you (aw oh oh)
And my soul is saying damn she was meant for yo(losing a part of myself now)
And my soul is saying damn she was meant for you (and I'm losing myself now)
And my soul is saying damn she was meant for you (aww)
I've been wondering, watching
I've been waiting so long
I've been talking, I've been listening
I've been playing my song
I've been hoping you'd would be leaving honestly you're not
I'm not with you
But I MISS YOU ... OH!