Lyrics Live and Learn - J. Cole , Salomon Faye , Eryn Allen Kane

Disappear (ghost)

My mind spills to thrills and fills the void, kills the noise
You know the game build, destroy, Tetris
Before you turn the phone off but then the phone dies
There's no break for a black guy
Blacklisted before they even wrote shit
Mad gifted before we even spoke the word
In the beginning,
It was just a word and the word was with God and the word was Allah
Voilà but it ain't magic niggas die but it ain't tragic
Its more natural new birth
What if heaven is the new Earth?
What if God is a bluebird,
That can't fly because it knows itself as the sky?
I used to see rain as the proof I can cry with no
Fear, but now I gotta hide my own tears so I don't seem weak
I don't even want to see me cause I don't know that nigga
I don't owe that nigga
To tell the truth, something to show that nigga
That's why I love you because I know who you are
That's why I look at you like I seen you before
I recognize you from a hole in the wall
That I punched in the wall because I'm so pissed off
I meditate and try to calm myself
I know anger only harm myself
False alarm myself
So many books I read to warn myself
I want more myself
Look at in the mirror and I scorn myself
Who am I?
And am I really even here?
I think it's time for me to disappear

Cause I've been living way too long in the right or the wrong
I'm as small as a fly with the shit that I'm on
So get going get lost
I don't want to be found
You won't see me if you looking around
Cause I've been living way too long in the right or the wrong
I'm as small as a fly with the shit that I'm on
So get going get lost
I don't want to be found
You won't see me if you looking around

Feel my pain
Feel my pain, feel my force walk into the flame
It will change you of course
Don't be scared, I will be there where you are
You don't know
It's ok where you go

Yesterday I saw the ending of the end
And I'm in it again
Everything is on spin, I'm just caught in the wind
Protectless, breathless, stress less
The high got the Faye kinda restless
Second guessing intent directions
I get a kick out of the irony of my blessings
Humerous in life, enormous as my sacrifice so it seems
Then again [?]
But a dollar and a dream and a model for the team
Or a slogan for the soul
How you living your just another soldier right?
What I'm fighting for don't even know what I'm writing for
Man this ain't even real life no more
I'm on the edge and I got nothing but a song
I'm lucky if the birds sing along

Cause I've been living way too long in the right or the wrong
I'm as small as a fly with the shit I'm on
So keep going get lost
I don't want to be found
You won't see me if you looking around
Cause I've been living way too long in the right or the wrong
I'm as small as a fly with the shit I'm on
So keep going get lost
I don't want to be found
You won't see me if you looking around

Feel my pain
Feel my pain, feel my force walk into the flame
It will change you of course
Don't be scared, I will be there where you are
You don't know
It's ok where you go