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This pain will never end
I can't see you again
This is no dream
It is my permanent nightmare

I woke up today
To see the sky had fallen

You took your own life in vain
To face the final calling

I don't know what I'm supposed to do
I try to pick up the pieces
Without one single clue

Did we fail you, my friend
Or was this meant to happen
Did we fail you, my friend

Could it have been different
If you were not alone
Would it have been different
If you just picked up your phone

I am lost for words, my friend
I just don't understand how this could be the end
Did I miss your warning signs
When you looked at me and told me you were fine

I need to get all this shit off my chest

How could you leave
Without warning, devastating me

Now here I stand
Alone
Searching for your halo
It wasn't your time to go

Now deep inside I try to find
The reasons you left us behind
The reasons that you took your life

Gone without warning

I drive myself crazy just thinking about
Who you'd become if you stuck it out
I'm blaming, constraining, degrading and shaming myself
For every single interaction where I could have helped

Now I see, it's so clear to me
You can't be happy in a world drowning mentally
But now after all the pain another life is lost and we will never be the same

Now here I stand
Alone
Searching for your halo
It wasn't your time to go

Now deep inside I try to find
The reasons you left us behind
The reasons that you took your life

Why did you have to go

Like the river my pain for you flows

I wish I could lift you up

Oh God why did you have to go

Please tell me,
No

Now here I stand
Alone
Searching for your halo
It wasn't your time to go

Now deep inside I try to find
The reasons you left us behind
The reasons that you took your life

Where is your halo

Where
Is your halo

How
How could you let life go

Why did you have to go

Now we're broken and alone