Lyrics Sober - Selca

I'm slipping to a depressive state
My brains itching emotions twisting my belly aches
Gun to my mind i close my eyes until the semi breaks
I'm breaking my neck at the brink of death with all this heavy weight
The heavy weight champ of never seeing better days
Acknowledge my problems with vodka to fill up this empty space
Astral projection can't wake from my wake
I'm waiting for something great
But they saying this asshole just needed some breath mints
What am I doing I threw in the towel
Captured my life I'm attacking my wife this action is fowl her
Body battered by fist but mind doesn't quit
So I'm grabbing the knife and realize I'm such a coward
Empowered by dark tendencies tempting me to act sour
I see my pedigree watch intensely from the bathroom shower
Why did he have to see this I should have reached for some flowers
What if he grows to be this he'll never be man of the hour

Whatever I thought its no matter
No attention to the broken woman soul shattered in four fragments
A cold battle felt dead might as well toe tag her
My bones rattled left quick for liquor and a warm platter
Contemplating these bold habits she won't have it
She gripped the kids left for jersey slept on a cold mattress
So stagnant to leave she wants to avoid caskets
I felt the fear drinking a beer at a local tavern
I've had it collapsed after the last glass of jack daniels
Did mister daniels jack my life and leave it in shambles
No its me didn't know jack gambled
Thought I could handle the scene
So I let it tamper with me
A couple shots on the rocks to keep me amped for the week
Cancerous deeds
Ample time to have these thoughts trample my dreams
Shake in my sleep while sweat leaks
I wake up see my kids they were camped in their seats
With a blanket for each its quiet

So quiet you could hear a riot in ireland
Look to my left where my wife slept with swollen iris
The foot of my bed an angel stood he asked me silently
Speak what's in your head its ok don't you be hiding it
I'm an incompetent body polished with nonsense
Just a novice dealing with thoughts that is spinning my conscious
Into whirlpools like appliances
Hurl puke cause what I have done
Is so cruel he replied what have you realized

I realized beating a woman is a form of weakness
I realized alcohol won't help me face my demons
I realized I've scarred my kids perception and vision
I realized I can't take back the pain I've inflicted
But witness this man stand up
And know that he'll die before this plan does I'm gunna man up

As I enter this inner sanctum
Preparing to face the phantom
I'm launching all of my darkness across uncharted dimensions
Demanding my soul replenish
Quenched with the thought of blessings
Remember I'm only human and all I want is redemption
Redeeming this empty presence that's presently lacking action
So currently disconnected this battle buried beneath the heavens
And in my core battling
But my sword shattering
Soul capturing captivating essence of poor vitality
I've dealt with some bad eggs I'm scrambling
Time to kill this this phantom show it some horror no baba dook
Lift off it attacks to the left I parry no platypus
Things kick off I kick to the face and watch him catch a foot
Then I catch a hook
A cataclysmic fight inside of these catacombs
But it's lacking bones
Only thing buried is dreams my past goals
And all this agitation I hold
For these aspirations this hope
Got me motivated I know

That this damn phantom safe guards it
And I really gotta kill it destroy it to make progress
Back to this battle at hand where hate started
My fate starving for positive energy and I can't wait to harness
Got this concept this meaning gotta harvest that feeling
So I harbor this reason to charge at this demon
Then I pump this shot
And I punch it's mouth
Then I jump and cock this arm and punch it's top
Its bleeding no blood just my dreams it was keeping

Cause this phantom played target
Finally I killed it destroyed it I made progress
This battle was won diminished what hate started
My fate got it
That positivity radiates beyond comets
That concept that meaning is don't stop believing
Cause I'm finally free and I won't stop the breathing
Do y'all feel me
Cause I took back all that was mine
Challenger defeated in battle that was my agni kai