Lyrics faux - Self Discovery

Numb the pain, I've let my teeth decay
I guess I'll wash my mouth out
With some Tanqueray
I look at postcards of memories I can't afford to make
Silhouettes upon a lonesome bridge
I open up the door, there's nothing in the fridge
Besides a box of lies, in which I can't afford
To fucking reminisce

What is this faux emotion?
Threw my phone out into the ocean
Kept it folded, and sealed the garden
Withered flowers locked inside my closet
Dishonest

Shed a tear and get me out of here
I guess it's not as simple as it may appear
I look at songs I wrote when I was too young to know fear
Daydream of a point in time I've lost
The miracle I wished for, never knew the cost
I pour my faults over the lines I know I've crossed upon

I guess it's faux emotion
Threw my phone out into the ocean
Kept it folded, and sealed the garden
Withered flowers locked inside my closet
Dishonest
Faux emotion (faux emotion)
Threw my phone out into the ocean (to the ocean)
Kept it folded, and sealed the garden (sealed the garden)
Withered flowers locked inside my closet (so dishonest)
Dishonest

I just wanna feel alive, no matter what it costs
I just wanna live life, no matter how it breaks me down
I just wanna feel alive, no matter what they say
I just wanna live life, no matter how it breaks me down