Lyrics I'm Not Gold - Seon , KIYEHM

Never could you love me I could never love myself
Open arms closed heart even broken at my best
Take a knife so deep I can't even feel my chest
Even 6 feet under I can't get me any rest

Closed eyes for the pain they gonna tell me that it trauma
No stop full gas you can leave me if you wanna
And I cared for you a minute life been tempting but I gotta
Run away float away I been crying for my mama

I don't wanna feel like
This is not real life
Stay up due to late night
On my own

Stabbed me cause my heart cold
I know that I'm not gold
Thing that never been told
Sell me soul

My heart is vacant
Thoughts is racing when i'm by my self
My mental killing me feeling like i'm gon always fail
You came along and and yet you went left you always bailed
Had battles with sum demons thanking god he helped
Because of you i felt so lost
That i ain't have directions
I'm steady stressing have troubles counting all my blessings

I found my purpose in a world but yet i wanna exit
I'd share my story's but i doubt you'd ever get the message

I'll admit
I'm fighting demons they keep come from sleeping
I see one i'm blasting
Stole my heart from the jump and you still chose to run
I knew what we had jus wasn't lasting
You hear me i scream out name
Yell that shit out on vein
You a dub in a past tense
I'm stuck in yo ways
I've been caught for days
Niggas got in my lane
I rerouted

I don't wanna feel like
This is not real life
Stay up due to late night
On my own

Stabbed me cause my heart cold
I know that I'm not gold
Thing that never been told
Sell me soul