Lyrics I'm Sorry I Just Can't - Sfweeb

I don't know how to relate
To the things that I loved and the friends the ive previously made
Just constantly stifle the hate
I push it deep down and I chase it with benzos until it ferments
And make my stomach ache
If I can't numb it then I start to shake, the cycle is fucked and I cannot escape
Fuck up and get fucked up
Is all that I am
Every one of my friends fucking names conveniently all end in azepam
When I envision my future
I don't have a chance
I'm constantly burning down bridges, and pushing away my friends
When will it end
When will it fucking end
Fucked up relationships hating myself again scheme on my fucking end
Warzone inside my head pills till my nerves are dead white sleeves
They all stained red dont leave my fucking bed remove my fucking head
And i bottle it bottle it bottle it up, just one more bottle to fuck myself up
Just one more pill, just one more bowl, who am I kidding I'm taking it all
Lie to myself every day
Telling myself that it maybe just maybe it'll possibly all go away
I cannot wait to fade
I cannot wait for the grey
I cannot wait for the day where they slide me in cold and then they press incinerate
I love the flames and the way that they lick my face
Erase my being and don't leave a trace
I don't know how to relate
I don't know how to relate
Everyone generate hate
And I don't know how to relate
I cannot wait to fade
I cannot wait for the grey
I cannot wait for the day where they slide me in cold
And then finally those fucks press incinerate