Stress Relief

So many lessons life doesn't stop teaching
Classes in session till the day I stop breathing
Don't like what I'm seeing but I should be grateful
I don't like wasting the little time that I have bro
You would think by now I would be used to change
But when people switch up bro I still feel phased
Good times gone to waste because your ways are lame
Everyone's the same I'm the one that's strange
Never been okay with the fake at all bro
Never like to say things that I don't mean bro
I understand that emotions feelings whatnots
Change over time if you want to or not
But loyalty won't that bullshit you're on
Had me turning off my phone and getting faded all alone
There really isn't too much of life that's left
I really don't want snakes in my life when death

Decides it's best if I no longer exist
Might not be any peace might not be any rest
Only fear I have left is coming back to this shit
The shadies I've met made me hate so much shit
Pushing loved ones away I'm better off without you
It's too late for you to stay and I don't want you to
You're better off too without trust what is it
That's something I can't do that part of me went missing
I wish I didn't listen and pay so much attention
Replay and dissect everything that you mentioned
When they show you who they are you better believe them
Everyone is temporary and they change with the seasons
That bullshit they were feeding I was hungry and eating
Besides a plug and knocks there's really no one I'm needing
I got a solid reason that you won't hear me speak
We're gonna keep that one thing between you and me
It ain't about being G shit if that was the case
Your actions would make your jacket read lame

Was never a game one life and that's it
You need to stay in your lane and duck or get hit
I wanted to quit couldn't figure it out
I just turned 41 so much I don't know about shit
Watch your mouth your words are based on false clout
I insert a little doubt you're choosing your words now
I couldn't do it never had a filter
My reasons are legit I should creep and kill her
Creep and kill bro it's deeper than you know
Accept disrespect that ain't one of the codes bro
I need patience I need time
I need an 18 pack with at least five limes
No lines today today I feel
Commit crimes every day and hope I get a good deal

It doesn't feel like it used to G
I'm not as young as I used to be
I'd rather live life free but the way I move disagrees
No L's 30 G's then I'm faded with the key
It gets hard to see through the smoke and thieves
Dealing with fiends in a city full of tweeks
When my pager would beep those the days I miss
Smoking that weed that came in bricks
I stress on shit almost always money
I middle bricks for the low for the homie
I send my primo lifestyle illegal
If I got the plug then so do my people
I don't see you you ain't on this level
Wherever you're at I hope it gets better
Not average but clever it's all so basic
Buy low sell high hope the pad don't get hit
I don't hear nonsense selective hearing
Fuck you and your God there ain't shit I'm fearing
The end is nearing I stay ready for whatever
Green dot two 30's I ain't got no worries
Said you ain't heard me lies is the language
It's fluent motherfuckers that's slangin' and bangin
That N I'm clammin no love or emotion
A demonstration find yourself in holding
I hope dudes coding and no teams are there
That's a horrible thought but I don't fucking care
Hella shit ain't fair hella people die
There's loved ones I'll never see again in my life
I tried not to cry I face a whole fifth
That there is why I write this shit
I tried not to cry
I face a whole fifth
That there is why I write this shit