Pandemic

People turn their backs against me
I'on know how am poz'd to feel
And am still young but to them
I feel like uncle phil
Am taking aggressive drugs
I don't know how to chill
I cant even feel shit my heart is numb for real
Alotta times reminiscing how i used to live
I lost it all then i made it back
I never quit
A styrofoam cup purple drink don't spill
I never did average they were thick like Kim
All this shit aint sudden
I Always knew what i would be
They confuse it with ego
When I decide to keep it brief
My life a debris
I don't want no one picking pieces
Been down on the bottom
But these niggaz kept on scheming
This shit is pandemic nigga
U better keep your distance
I'm trynna be vicious
And 20 20 that's the vision
I changed my ways
Now better days now am seeing
I see their faces full of hate, jealousy and
You fooled me once thats enough
You turned me into a demon
Am going places
I'on know when i'mma see em
R.i.p them
I'm grinding Am to the pm

So why they thinking i'm a target
Better watch it I always keep it solid and i'm honest
Now its hurting me
I cant believe I gave em everything
But wouldn't do the same for me
I know that's a problem I still got em
I wish they never doubted but it happened
Aint no stopping me, yeah
Cause I'm a different breed
So hard to disagree

I'm trynna reach my pentagons
Watahate cause hawafit on my schedule
It just got personal
Even if is flexible
I treat u like the rest of em
Try my best showing love
While i know none bout it, oh
Am used to pain so much
Now i dont feel none at all
I give and give and give
Till none is left no more
Why da'fuk u get piss'd
One time that i said no
Swear this shit is getting old
I know u wish for me the worst
All that negativity
You know i can't condone
Cant trust nobody
I cant barely trust a soul
I'on need no one around me
All my life i felt alone
They hate who i've becoming
Am the product of it all

So why they thinking i'm a target
Better watch it I always keep it solid and am honest
Now its hurting me
I cant believe I gave em everything
But wouldn't do the same for me
I know that's a problem I still got em
I wish they never doubted but it happened
Ain't no stopping me, yeah
Cause I'm a different breed
So hard to disagree, yeh