Lyrics Suicidal Talks (First Steps) - TSG

This story that I'm writing never thought I'd even share
But lately, I've been thinking yeah it's time to clear the air
I never thought of suicide until a recent fear
So when I saw my nan's grave yeah that put me near (R.I.P.)
Now what's worse most people never known about it
Even the ones closest to me never known about it (Facts)
I always tried to work it out but never talked about it
But now it's time I feel yeah I gotta talk about it
One night I came back from the gym I felt was ready
A certain feeling on my mind was just laying heavy
They say that death comes in threes but I ain't no Levy
Cause all the stars seeing heaven like my name was Kenny (Allstar)
I turn the lights off in my room just thinking about a med
Intoxicated I can't sleep so I'm awake instead
Just laying on my bed
And I'm just staring at the ceiling wishing I could just be dead
That's what I said
When I lost my gran
But maybe it was gods plan
Now in these scary hours, you gotta hold on to a hand
No MJ, it ain't all black and white now
So, where's the light
So what's a colour when most people ain't living to see tonight
And that's crazy, cause I related to that image
And if you don't then you ignorant to privilege
Look, I guess nothing was the same furthest thing from it
But I've been feeling this from time
Just falling from my summit (Drizzy)
Now I've never seen life from this point of view
I guess the pressure of the world now's been getting colder too
Cause everyone going through something it ain't nothing new
So tell me what the people of today supposed to do
We gotta learn to love each other in this time of need
We gotta make a better world just to stop the greed
We gotta stop all of the hate cause now that's what kills a breed
Laws of attraction be the reason why some people freed
So just remember before you think about taking your life
Just think about the ones you love and that feel like a knife
Just bleeding out cause their hearts couldn't take it
Now don't forget you have the power just to change it
So this is why I'm rapping just to touch the heart of others
Cause when life can be so grey you shine bright in colours
And this goes out to everyone who made it out of the gutter
To keep calm and carry on ain't need to stutter
Yano what's crazy yeah
It's like
I still got visions of granny being here
Yano what I mean like
I have dreams about her all the time
And just like Sometimes they feel way too surreal
And like it's hard sometimes yano what I mean
To go on with life like nothings ever happened
But yano what I mean it's just
Yeah man
I remember the last words she said to me
It always resonated with me
And I don't know why
But I think that's what inspired me to do this
Cause it was like
She said to me
Remember, Remember, Ty
To always take your First Steps in your life
And take it for what you want
No one can help you but yourself
And you can always do what you want
And it was like in that moment I just felt
I don't know why but it kinda just hit me
It just hit me
And yeah I can never thank her enough for that
And till this day I still miss her
But, that's what inspired it
And, these are my First Steps
(First Steps, First Steps)
(First Steps, First Steps)
(First Steps, First Steps)
(First Steps, First Steps)
(First Steps, First Steps)
(First Steps, First Steps)
(First Steps, First Steps)