Lyrics Bad Apple (From "Touhou") - Tara St. Michel feat. Ikanaide

Even as the time now continues flowing on
I cannot feel a thing as my body keeps on circling
I cannot even see that my heart′s no longer part of me
I've become numb
Is this really me?

I cannot even move, for I′m frozen still
As I keep slipping through the cracks in the depths of all eternity
I cannot comprehend all that's happening around me
Trapped inside my thoughts
And I can't break free

But maybe it′s a dream
Maybe nothing′s really there
But as I keep trying to scream, all I hear is silent air
I'm so sick of all the pain, as it′s tearing me apart!
And I wish I could move on, free these feelings from my heart

Even if I had the words that I cannot seem to find
I don't think my heart would care, no matter how hard I try
Though I want to run away, leaving everything behind
If I try to change a thing, then the darkness creeps inside

Is there anything for me?
Is there somewhere I can go?
Can my broken soul exist in this world of shining hope?
Does it hurt, or is it sad?
Is there anything for me
When the truth of who I am is still something I can′t see?

I'm just tired of every step when there′s nowhere left to go!
All the people that I meet, I will never truly know
If I found a way to change, even though I'm not the type
If it's not impossible, I could welcome in the light!

Even as the time now continues flowing on
I cannot feel a thing as my body keeps on circling
I cannot even see that my heart′s no longer part of me
I′ve become numb
Is this really me?

I cannot even move, for I'm frozen still
As I keep slipping through the cracks in the depths of all eternity
I cannot comprehend all that′s happening around me
Trapped inside my thoughts
And I can't break free

But maybe it′s a dream
Maybe nothing's really there
But as I keep trying to scream, all I hear is silent air
I′m so sick of all the pain, as it's tearing me apart!
And I wish I could move on, free these feelings from my heart

Even if I had the words that I cannot seem to find
I don't think my heart would care, no matter how hard I try
Though I want to run away, leaving everything behind
If I try to change a thing, then the darkness creeps inside

If I try to make a move, if I try to make a move!
I′ll destroy almost everything, leaving nothing left to lose
If I′m grieving in the night, if I'm grieving in the night!
Will there ever be a chance for my heart to see the light?
No, I don′t know you are, and I don't know who I am!
I′ve forgotten everything, and I still don't understand
Is there really still a chance, if I open up my eyes?
Once I′ve broken everything, would the darkness creep inside?