Lyrics Popular Monster - Taylor Destroy

Yeah

I wake up every morning, with my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should say this, but I'll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay

I battle with depression, but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressin', or am I suppressin' rage?
And my doctor tries to tell me, that I'm goin' through a phase
Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay?

Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down, searchin' for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love, now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster

I think I'm going nowhere, like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knock down, is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
How the fuck will I escape, if I never close my case?

Oh my God, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessin' I won't take
But my therapist will tell me, that I'm goin' through a stage
Yeah, it's not a fuckin' stage, I just wanna feel okay

Okay, motherfucker, now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things, 'cause something is missin'
And what if I were to lie, tell you everything was fine?
Every single fucking day, I get closer to the grave, I am terrified
I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car, just to feel again
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down, searchin' for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love, now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular fucking monster, raahw!
Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, yeah

Sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a god, that you don't believe
We're searching for the truth, in the lost and found
And so the question I ask is
Hrrar, where the fuck is your god, now?

Hrah, I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love, now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular, popular monster